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so that party last night... didn't end up happening. and it's weird,
u'd think i'd be disappointed but i'm not. joan was the only one who
ended up coming over, besides my cousin, and i don't really care. a
couple of people just sort of ditched me but i honestly don't care...
i'm a terrible hostess cuz i don't really care what everyone else wants
i just sort of do my own thing haha... so yeah. my new years eve was
basically me, joan, my sister, my brother, and my cousin sitting around
my kitchen table playing scrabble and monopoly, eating ice cream and
pizza and all that good stuff, and then watching the ball drop and
putting on a movie. it was exactly what i wanted, a nice low-key night
where everyone could just chill and talk and be merry. i feel sort of
bad cuz joan was like 'i thought there was gonna be a party' and all
that crap and 'i could have just watched the ball drop at home' and
stuff... well i didn't exactly force her to come, and believe me, i
won't be asking her to do much of anything in the near future. i'm
making a couple of necessary, realistic resolutions.
-eat healthier and exercise, not necessarily to lose weight but to be healthy
-stop caring what everyone else thinks so much and be true to myself no matter what
-be a better daughter and sister
-pass every class from now until graduation
-be more productive--talk less, do more
-be more honest and direct, even if it would be easier to lie or put up with unnecessary BS
yeah so i don't expect all this to happen overnight, but hey, a little at a time. i'm trying to be more focused and stop letting little things get to me so bad, for the sake of my mental health and emotional wellbeing. i need to stop caring about stupid things that don't really matter (appearance, boys, etc) and do things i enjoy. i want to learn how to play the guitar. eventually i am going to buy myself a guitar and learn how to play. and i am going to focus on my writing and maybe (probly not) actually let someone see something i've written. yeah. high hopes for 2005. but hey, it should be a fantastic year. my 18th bday, spring break, the real prom, graduation, college... damn, this is gonna be one crazy year. hell yeah!!!!!! i love this. i've been so happy lately. i'm just glad to put the past behind me and move on. no more (unnecessary) drama. no more bs. good times and fun in '05!!! yayness!!! yeah i'm gonna go watch a cartoon or something. peace out yo.
-eat healthier and exercise, not necessarily to lose weight but to be healthy
-stop caring what everyone else thinks so much and be true to myself no matter what
-be a better daughter and sister
-pass every class from now until graduation
-be more productive--talk less, do more
-be more honest and direct, even if it would be easier to lie or put up with unnecessary BS
yeah so i don't expect all this to happen overnight, but hey, a little at a time. i'm trying to be more focused and stop letting little things get to me so bad, for the sake of my mental health and emotional wellbeing. i need to stop caring about stupid things that don't really matter (appearance, boys, etc) and do things i enjoy. i want to learn how to play the guitar. eventually i am going to buy myself a guitar and learn how to play. and i am going to focus on my writing and maybe (probly not) actually let someone see something i've written. yeah. high hopes for 2005. but hey, it should be a fantastic year. my 18th bday, spring break, the real prom, graduation, college... damn, this is gonna be one crazy year. hell yeah!!!!!! i love this. i've been so happy lately. i'm just glad to put the past behind me and move on. no more (unnecessary) drama. no more bs. good times and fun in '05!!! yayness!!! yeah i'm gonna go watch a cartoon or something. peace out yo.