here we go again
i was so ready to go to school. woke up at 5, came down for my
shower... passed out in the living room... woke up at 6:40 and everyone
was gone... yeah so AFTER i do all my homework and i resolve to go,
that's when they decide to let me stay. oy. parents.
so yeah. today was pretty nice and chill. my mom came home from work to "take care of me" which basically meant force me to watch shitty soap operas and take nasty cough syrup. but it was cool to hang with her. and it's my dad's bday! the Very Old One is 59!! how exciting!!
ok sorry about this painfully boring entry. although i'd rather have more entries like this than the ones from the end of last year. at least when my life is boring i'm not depressed. i'd rather feel nothing than feel that bad again. i still have the occasional "ihateeverythingiwanttodie" moment but they seem to be fewer and farther between. which is encouraging. ok i'm gonna go talk to mikey now. oy that kid is so set on being my friend... it's hard not to fall into old ways of thinking though. talking to him is emotionally draining sometimes. i really didn't need to know he dumped his girlfriend.
so yeah. today was pretty nice and chill. my mom came home from work to "take care of me" which basically meant force me to watch shitty soap operas and take nasty cough syrup. but it was cool to hang with her. and it's my dad's bday! the Very Old One is 59!! how exciting!!
ok sorry about this painfully boring entry. although i'd rather have more entries like this than the ones from the end of last year. at least when my life is boring i'm not depressed. i'd rather feel nothing than feel that bad again. i still have the occasional "ihateeverythingiwanttodie" moment but they seem to be fewer and farther between. which is encouraging. ok i'm gonna go talk to mikey now. oy that kid is so set on being my friend... it's hard not to fall into old ways of thinking though. talking to him is emotionally draining sometimes. i really didn't need to know he dumped his girlfriend.