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I was just told today that my parents put my dog to sleep this morning. It really sucks, i didnt get to see her one last time, they didnt tell me they were going to do it today or anything. They had been telling me that she was getting old, and just recently started wetting her bed at night but I never wanted to hear it. It bothered me too much to hear all of that, i really wish they had just told me before so i could have gone to see her before they took her. I'm really fucking sad from it right now, she was 14 years old, ive had her for a long time obviously. We got her after my dad had to put his dog to sleep, and he saw how upset it got me so he went out and found Chelsea at the animal defense league and came home to surprise me. She was so tiny when we got her. I think she was a mix of Cowdog and lab (more lab looking), she was basically a big white dog, not that dirty white color that looks yellow, she was like perfectly white. I really miss her already, its going to be weird going to my parents house and not seeing her anymore, or having to go feed her when my parents leave town. My dad didnt get her tags because he thought it would just upset me more, but i just called and told them i want them so i can at least have those to remember her. She was always terrified of cameras so i dont have a lot of pictures of her. Im here alone at home now, i couldnt stay at work when they told me, I'm really hoping Krystine will get her break soon so she can call me, she doesnt know yet either. What sucks is i have to go back to work in a little while, and im really not in the mood to act all happy on the phone with people. I knew this was going to happen one day of course, i just wish it happened differently. I had been thinking a lot about it lately, wondering if it really was a good time to take her and have it done or if i would even want to be there. I decided that i did want to be there, i think so at least. So I could stay with her while they did it, but my dad took her to the vet this morning to see what they thought. She had got the lump on her back leg, and apparently it was cancer, and it had started to spread to her organs making her lose control of her bladder and they claim that she would have died in a couple of weeks anyway. They had her creamated (however its spelled) so she wouldnt just be thrown in the garbage or something crappy like that.