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up.
down.
up.
down.
(repeat)

no matter where i turn i'm the third wheel.
seems like everyone has someone but me.
seems like i'm destined to be this way.
i wake up in the morning and am disappointed that i'm still here.
i blame myself for everything that's happened in my life because i'm the easiest person to blame, and i can never really stay mad at people for long.
i honestly just dont want to wake up anymore.
and thats a scary feeling.

my family doesnt know why i have such a short fuse with everything lately.
they dont know how depressed i am.
they wouldnt really get it.
i dont really get it.
so they sure as fuck wouldnt.
i wish i could just tell them.
but i cant.
it just doesnt work that way.
we just dont talk about things.

i still think i need to get out of this town.
or just not wake up.
whichever comes first.