Conquering Fools
I've come to the conclusion that losing a best friend is a hard thing to deal with and even get over. You once had somthing special with this person and now , well its gone... theres nothing and you look back on the times when you were friends and realize you do indeed miss them. I tend to wonder what if? and i feel like that might not be the best thing to do- i regret a lot and would change a lot, but i know i can't go back in time and fix things. I would love to fix things now, make things better for all of us- but at this point i feel like there is nothing i can do and thats the worst part:Not having any control over the situation.My eyes water when thinking about this.But then i ask myself why am i so upset? Should i not care about this that much? the problem is i do care, and maybe too much. I wish there was something i could do, or something i could say or something i could change...and i hope that things get better: and soon, i'm never really this upset about things like this, but for some reason this situation we have on our hands hit my heart hard.