A realization...
What if you weren't afraid? What if you woke up and told yourself the world isn't such a scary place after all? I wonder how much happier you would be.
We're all wounded people. We mess up. Forgiveness is necessary, or we would always be holding a grudge. I wonder how heavy that weight would be after awhile.
Today I noticed for the first time in a long time the little things that made me happy. Yeah, I still need affirmation (that's a strong need, the need for approval. I'm on the patch right now), but I'm starting, little by little, to find it in other places. That's why I got a dog. :)
I met the Dean of Tennessee last weekend. He asked me why I chose Mississippi State over Knoxville, and I explained about the whole interview process. He looked at me and said, "I know who you are." Now...here I was thinking...the Dean of Knoxville knows who I am and half my professors couldn't even tell you I was a student...hmmm?
Me: "You do?"
Dean: "Yes. If anything ever goes wrong in the acceptance process I hear about it. And losing you was something that DEFINATELY went wrong."
Me: "Really?"
DEAN: "Here, walk with me and I'll buy you a water. Do they still drink water in Mississippi?"
ME: Sometimes.
DEAN: "Tell me though, do you like it down there."
ME: Honestly?
DEAN: Yes, I am curious. If we lost you I would hope it'd turn out better for you.
ME: No. I'm not happy there at all. I am so unhappy, as a matter of fact, that I looked at your website to see about transfering.
DEAN: What'd you find? Are you gonna do it?
ME: I don't think it's practical anymore. I think I can get through at MS now.
DEAN: Here's my card. If it ever gets that bad again, CALL me. I'm really sorry about all that. I'm really sorry we lost you.
And that was basically it. I got affirmed more in 20 minutes than I have in an entire semester. I was wanted, and my absence was noted.
I just...wanted to share that. I guess cause it made me so happy. That's all. Peace out! :)
We're all wounded people. We mess up. Forgiveness is necessary, or we would always be holding a grudge. I wonder how heavy that weight would be after awhile.
Today I noticed for the first time in a long time the little things that made me happy. Yeah, I still need affirmation (that's a strong need, the need for approval. I'm on the patch right now), but I'm starting, little by little, to find it in other places. That's why I got a dog. :)
I met the Dean of Tennessee last weekend. He asked me why I chose Mississippi State over Knoxville, and I explained about the whole interview process. He looked at me and said, "I know who you are." Now...here I was thinking...the Dean of Knoxville knows who I am and half my professors couldn't even tell you I was a student...hmmm?
Me: "You do?"
Dean: "Yes. If anything ever goes wrong in the acceptance process I hear about it. And losing you was something that DEFINATELY went wrong."
Me: "Really?"
DEAN: "Here, walk with me and I'll buy you a water. Do they still drink water in Mississippi?"
ME: Sometimes.
DEAN: "Tell me though, do you like it down there."
ME: Honestly?
DEAN: Yes, I am curious. If we lost you I would hope it'd turn out better for you.
ME: No. I'm not happy there at all. I am so unhappy, as a matter of fact, that I looked at your website to see about transfering.
DEAN: What'd you find? Are you gonna do it?
ME: I don't think it's practical anymore. I think I can get through at MS now.
DEAN: Here's my card. If it ever gets that bad again, CALL me. I'm really sorry about all that. I'm really sorry we lost you.
And that was basically it. I got affirmed more in 20 minutes than I have in an entire semester. I was wanted, and my absence was noted.
I just...wanted to share that. I guess cause it made me so happy. That's all. Peace out! :)