Beyond words?
How do you tell someone how much they mean to you? Sure theres plenty of ways to tell someone you love them, to reassure them and explain how much you enjoy their company and the things you do together, all those little things they do and the small things only someone so close can notice about them.
I'm talking about how you can possibly tell someone that after all the hundreds.. thousands of people you've met in your life, friends, classmates, strangers, people you work with and your family, that this person is the one you want to be around the most. Past the scams, liars, the dirt and the filth in this world, that you have never felt better than the way you feel with this person.
In short, how can you tell someone that they are the best thing to ever happen to you? Toys and gadgets can impress you, entertain you and occupy your interests for years, but to grow with someone, change with them and find that you and this person share something that both of you enjoy as much, is just such an incredible feeling that you begin to forget how you ever found joy and comfort without it.
This all sounds soppy, i know, but i feel i have the right to take comfort in what i share with someone that i have come to trust and love.
I dont think theres any one thing that can say all of this, and all that you feel. I guess i'll just have to wait and see and keep on enjoying what we have. Maybe that in itself is saying all these things anyway..
I did'nt want to post an update here without at least explaining what i'm up to now so i took a break from what i wrote before and here i am now!
I'm still working, saving up money an plotting schemes to get myself over to college in the US.. if anyone that reads this has anything to share by the way on the subject.. please feel free to give us a shout :P
We're thinking of selling the house and moving, freeing up some money so we can all enjoy ourselves a little better. Moving is painful enough.. but it's even more painful to realize that this step is one more away from being a family, with dad moved out already, he'll take something like 40% of the house money and get his own place. I try not to let this get to me, i try not to be one to push my problems onto others and just deal with it, thats what i feel is best for me, anything else would make me feel worse. Joe's old enough to understand things, like me, he's just annoyed about things, like he said, he always felt he was the most 'family' guy he knows, you hear from kids all the way through school who have problems with their parents, dont know their mom or dad and just get over it as a kid, he never thought he'd be in this position and feels let down a little i think.. well, a lot really, he's worried he'll grow up to be the same (and obviously he does'nt want that). Tom is taking things the worst i think, he seems content with his PC and all, just playing games all day really, but he does'nt talk about things with us as much, he's younger obviously and probably does'nt understand as much, but he's not dumb and he does tell us what he thinks when we ask, but he's definately changed recently. Tom had a few problems at school, on of his friends literally turned on him, pressured by some other kids or something and started a fight on tom, the fact tom could kick 7 shades of shit out of the guy was a comfort to know, but the mental side of something like that hurts, they were friends for ages, and then one day he starts a fight.. pssh, some people.. tom did'nt even fight back when the guy hit him, i'll admit i admire him for that, he's got a longer fuse than me.. i'd have decked the guy right there. But anyway! I'm babbling a bit.. but it's worth thinking about these things for a while i guess.
I'm gonna get back to work, get some things done for lunch so i can have a nap after.. :P j/k.
Take care y'all!
Wow.. big post :D
I'm talking about how you can possibly tell someone that after all the hundreds.. thousands of people you've met in your life, friends, classmates, strangers, people you work with and your family, that this person is the one you want to be around the most. Past the scams, liars, the dirt and the filth in this world, that you have never felt better than the way you feel with this person.
In short, how can you tell someone that they are the best thing to ever happen to you? Toys and gadgets can impress you, entertain you and occupy your interests for years, but to grow with someone, change with them and find that you and this person share something that both of you enjoy as much, is just such an incredible feeling that you begin to forget how you ever found joy and comfort without it.
This all sounds soppy, i know, but i feel i have the right to take comfort in what i share with someone that i have come to trust and love.
I dont think theres any one thing that can say all of this, and all that you feel. I guess i'll just have to wait and see and keep on enjoying what we have. Maybe that in itself is saying all these things anyway..
I did'nt want to post an update here without at least explaining what i'm up to now so i took a break from what i wrote before and here i am now!
I'm still working, saving up money an plotting schemes to get myself over to college in the US.. if anyone that reads this has anything to share by the way on the subject.. please feel free to give us a shout :P
We're thinking of selling the house and moving, freeing up some money so we can all enjoy ourselves a little better. Moving is painful enough.. but it's even more painful to realize that this step is one more away from being a family, with dad moved out already, he'll take something like 40% of the house money and get his own place. I try not to let this get to me, i try not to be one to push my problems onto others and just deal with it, thats what i feel is best for me, anything else would make me feel worse. Joe's old enough to understand things, like me, he's just annoyed about things, like he said, he always felt he was the most 'family' guy he knows, you hear from kids all the way through school who have problems with their parents, dont know their mom or dad and just get over it as a kid, he never thought he'd be in this position and feels let down a little i think.. well, a lot really, he's worried he'll grow up to be the same (and obviously he does'nt want that). Tom is taking things the worst i think, he seems content with his PC and all, just playing games all day really, but he does'nt talk about things with us as much, he's younger obviously and probably does'nt understand as much, but he's not dumb and he does tell us what he thinks when we ask, but he's definately changed recently. Tom had a few problems at school, on of his friends literally turned on him, pressured by some other kids or something and started a fight on tom, the fact tom could kick 7 shades of shit out of the guy was a comfort to know, but the mental side of something like that hurts, they were friends for ages, and then one day he starts a fight.. pssh, some people.. tom did'nt even fight back when the guy hit him, i'll admit i admire him for that, he's got a longer fuse than me.. i'd have decked the guy right there. But anyway! I'm babbling a bit.. but it's worth thinking about these things for a while i guess.
I'm gonna get back to work, get some things done for lunch so i can have a nap after.. :P j/k.
Take care y'all!
Wow.. big post :D