what's happEniNG TO MEEE?
i guess this is some kind of karma thing. i was just making jokes about undecideds. actually i was making fun of how people in the media treat them like religious sages but when you look at them, like in the second debate town hall meeting, they're kind of squinting and trying to concentrate. it's kind of like a 'being there' thing. like sucking up to homer simpson like he's ghandi.
anyway, i suddenly came down with a case of the undecideds. i was driving in my car yesterday and felt waves and waves of doubt and confusion crashing in on me. i'm tempted to try to break it down on this blog, just as a way to sort it out. but i also hate the way i come across when i talk about politics. plus, i think this election is really important and maybe i just need to quiet myself and use the force. anyway, there's less than a week to go and now i don't know who i'm voting for. oops.
another thing. i get stuck in these ruts where i think there's nothing new and that life can't surprise me. but the past few months i haven't felt that way. here's some new things i've found.
1. blogosphere - this is something new and powerful, like the internet when it first started. i'm not talking about narcissistic dear diary blogs, but the idea blogs. i've been finding all these amazing blogs where people aren't conventional thinkers and are turning me on to new ideas and information. after getting all your info filtered through the same media sources, it's very strange to get it unfiltered. it tastes different. the amount of sheer info and debate that's happening in the blogosphere all day long is overwhelming. but it's exciting to know it's there.
2. the southfield public library. - i am always looking for new places to relax. i get an hour lunch break but if i use it to go home, a half hour is spent driving and that's not really relaxing. anwyay, every day on the way home from work, i pass this futuristic, huge building right down the street from my office. i found out that it's the library. and it's got a cafe, tons of couches and relaxing things. and it's quiet. and it's open till 9. and they serve my kind. i checked out some amazing classical music there the other day. you can extend your due dates online also.
3. web design/graphic design - i'm big about being an amateur. i like to use my brain creatively, but it's more fun when i don't know what i'm doing. i've tried to stay that way with music, and have succeeded. i recently realized that my computer at work has all these great programs and tools that i can use to make web pages and design stuff. so i've started to do it. i'm reading a book on html and one on photoshop. i guess i never would have thought i'd be into a way of expressing myself visually, even though when i was a kid my thing was drawing. but i guess i love it.
4. perverse-minded friends - i'm lucky to have a friends with perverse minds. rod is probably top of the list. not to kiss his ass, but the guy is just insane. constantly suprising me. and so are so many of my friends. we did this show last week and the other bands were trying to do something new too and it felt good. it felt good to be part of something, since most of the time i feel like an outsider. a room full of people into new things is some partial definition of happiness for me.
if i could meet a girl who had rod's breasts and insanity, scott allen's dance moves, mez's sense of anti-humor, james' political mind for detail, jesse's political heart and retourical flourishes, skats' gravel voice, freckles and coversational style, and this girl liked totally different music than me and turned me on to one great book a year and could teach me to cook and garden and box.... i might get married.
5. claire does something new everyday and her innocence crushes and reforms my bitter heart daily.
ok, now i feel i'm getting really dear diary. better stop.
anyway, i suddenly came down with a case of the undecideds. i was driving in my car yesterday and felt waves and waves of doubt and confusion crashing in on me. i'm tempted to try to break it down on this blog, just as a way to sort it out. but i also hate the way i come across when i talk about politics. plus, i think this election is really important and maybe i just need to quiet myself and use the force. anyway, there's less than a week to go and now i don't know who i'm voting for. oops.
another thing. i get stuck in these ruts where i think there's nothing new and that life can't surprise me. but the past few months i haven't felt that way. here's some new things i've found.
1. blogosphere - this is something new and powerful, like the internet when it first started. i'm not talking about narcissistic dear diary blogs, but the idea blogs. i've been finding all these amazing blogs where people aren't conventional thinkers and are turning me on to new ideas and information. after getting all your info filtered through the same media sources, it's very strange to get it unfiltered. it tastes different. the amount of sheer info and debate that's happening in the blogosphere all day long is overwhelming. but it's exciting to know it's there.
2. the southfield public library. - i am always looking for new places to relax. i get an hour lunch break but if i use it to go home, a half hour is spent driving and that's not really relaxing. anwyay, every day on the way home from work, i pass this futuristic, huge building right down the street from my office. i found out that it's the library. and it's got a cafe, tons of couches and relaxing things. and it's quiet. and it's open till 9. and they serve my kind. i checked out some amazing classical music there the other day. you can extend your due dates online also.
3. web design/graphic design - i'm big about being an amateur. i like to use my brain creatively, but it's more fun when i don't know what i'm doing. i've tried to stay that way with music, and have succeeded. i recently realized that my computer at work has all these great programs and tools that i can use to make web pages and design stuff. so i've started to do it. i'm reading a book on html and one on photoshop. i guess i never would have thought i'd be into a way of expressing myself visually, even though when i was a kid my thing was drawing. but i guess i love it.
4. perverse-minded friends - i'm lucky to have a friends with perverse minds. rod is probably top of the list. not to kiss his ass, but the guy is just insane. constantly suprising me. and so are so many of my friends. we did this show last week and the other bands were trying to do something new too and it felt good. it felt good to be part of something, since most of the time i feel like an outsider. a room full of people into new things is some partial definition of happiness for me.
if i could meet a girl who had rod's breasts and insanity, scott allen's dance moves, mez's sense of anti-humor, james' political mind for detail, jesse's political heart and retourical flourishes, skats' gravel voice, freckles and coversational style, and this girl liked totally different music than me and turned me on to one great book a year and could teach me to cook and garden and box.... i might get married.
5. claire does something new everyday and her innocence crushes and reforms my bitter heart daily.
ok, now i feel i'm getting really dear diary. better stop.