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crazyness. all around.
i've still been trying to get with rebecca. seems like everyday i fall a little harder for that girl. we've been getting closer. its nice. she comes over, we hang out, we cuddle, and we hook up sometimes. seems like its going in the right direction.
last night was bad though. i had her here before we went out. we cuddled. we napped. then we went out. like a jackass, i got totally fucking drunk and couldnt even see straight. was a bad move. i should have been a little more responsible and brought her back here. she literally took care of me. drove me home. made sure i got to my door ok. i feel like such a jerk.
i'm stupid into that girl. people have told me to quit her. shes bad for me. shes not into me. she only likes attention. i'm powerless to stop myself. i know i'm setting myself up for a world of hurt. i really want to believe that its going to turn into something though. if it does.. i'll treat that girl like gold.
we didnt talk for a while. after mania... we kinda dropped off. i ended up hooking up with this girl Cady. seems like as soon as i did, Rebecca came right back. i know the game. i know how that shit works. it happens all the time. i'm just upset with myself in the whole situation. i shouldnt have brought Cady so far. she is stupid into me, like i'm stupid into Rebecca. i had to cut her off cuz its not fair for me to be pursuing rebecca and trying to beat Cady off of me. she got hurt in the end...which i'm not happy about. but really.. she was going to be hurt either way. it was better for me to come clean early on rather than lead her on for a while.
i'm pretty upset with myself after last night. hopefully rebecca isnt as upset with me as i am with myself.
i've still been trying to get with rebecca. seems like everyday i fall a little harder for that girl. we've been getting closer. its nice. she comes over, we hang out, we cuddle, and we hook up sometimes. seems like its going in the right direction.
last night was bad though. i had her here before we went out. we cuddled. we napped. then we went out. like a jackass, i got totally fucking drunk and couldnt even see straight. was a bad move. i should have been a little more responsible and brought her back here. she literally took care of me. drove me home. made sure i got to my door ok. i feel like such a jerk.
i'm stupid into that girl. people have told me to quit her. shes bad for me. shes not into me. she only likes attention. i'm powerless to stop myself. i know i'm setting myself up for a world of hurt. i really want to believe that its going to turn into something though. if it does.. i'll treat that girl like gold.
we didnt talk for a while. after mania... we kinda dropped off. i ended up hooking up with this girl Cady. seems like as soon as i did, Rebecca came right back. i know the game. i know how that shit works. it happens all the time. i'm just upset with myself in the whole situation. i shouldnt have brought Cady so far. she is stupid into me, like i'm stupid into Rebecca. i had to cut her off cuz its not fair for me to be pursuing rebecca and trying to beat Cady off of me. she got hurt in the end...which i'm not happy about. but really.. she was going to be hurt either way. it was better for me to come clean early on rather than lead her on for a while.
i'm pretty upset with myself after last night. hopefully rebecca isnt as upset with me as i am with myself.