thanks for ruining my fucking weekend and my high that i had about seeing someone i truelycareabout
i know u fucking read this shit.. like u think i dont read ur fucking tumblr... well guess fucking what.. what a fucking way for you to end the fucking relationship. im done.
i dont know how many guys u fucked while we were going out but i know u did.. i can tell... the way u act about guys and all the texts and all of the flirting that u do and how u lead guys on and shit.. i know u have been fucking other guys and not telling me.. i made a fucking mistake and i spent more money and time on u that u will ever fucking admit.
i know u go out to bars and shit and hook up with guys and some of ur friends.. but im fucking done.. i have not done it and i made a mistake with jasmine.. i dont go around fucking other girls at all and i know u do other guys.. i can fucking tell.. i know how tight u get when u dont have sex for a month and after the last time u were fucking loose... nothing tight about it... and u were missing condoms from a brand new pack that u just bought like 2 days before? right... im retty sure that crystal and her boyfriend get their own.. oh wait.. there was like 4 used ones and a large box in the fucking bath room when i was there.... so i know something is up with that shit... i doubt that they used an entire 12 pack in 2 days.. and u were missing 2...
o and u think that u get nothing back? i spent sooo mch on u and never asked for anything back. u enjoy spending time with me and shit and staying here.. i dont like staying places where i dont feel welcome at... hence y i dont like going to ur place at all.. i never feel welcome thas y i dont fucking talk to anyone there or ur friends...i dont go out nd get drunk and hook up with random girls.. no i fucking stay and help my friends that are drunk and keep them safe.
unlike u. i know what u do. i know how much u lie and u shold know that i can fucking tell.. if u want to go fuck random guys go for it. im fucking done. dont expect me to talk to u again.
i know people that cna make me happy unconditionally who love me unconditionally and love me for me and would love to be with me. but i havent done jack shit to be with them. they know that i would too.. but i havent done shit to be with them. maybe u should see how some girls make me feel better than i ever could.. maybe if u met my friends that make me feel happy all the time u would realize how i have fun..
o and u think that my parents take care of me and pay for everything and u think that im a fucking mooch? sure.. whatever.. i fucking worked for everyting taht my parents got me.. will pas for me out of fucking respect and all the shit that i use to buy him with out him asking. so fuck u. u think that i never tried to find a fucking job when i fucking spent 6 god damn months every fucking day tring to get a fucking job and i gave up because im fucking over qualified for everything. i got a job at target because i lowered my fucking self to get it. i put that i was dumb as fuck and didnt know anything tht i actally do. so fuck you.
i do shit taht makes me happy. thats y i game and u would never and will never understand how much work i put into my life to get it how it is.. to have the friends that i do and to love the people that i do. you dont understand an actually bonding with people that become a fucking family to someone instaead of friends.. i dont ever fucking talk shit about u behind ur back. ever. i dont go bitching to my friends about how ur being a bitch or a whore and everything. i defend u from them when they fucking say shit about u... but i guess i should start talking shit about u and keep a fucking highschool/college mentality and let me lower my self to ur level to make people feel like shit.
i wish u could meet the people that i truely love and see exactly y i love them the way i do. i would of loved to have u here to meet jessy and see how much i fucking care for her and why. see why i spent 6 years trying to find out what happened to her and where she went. or even why i ahve so much respect for hr and her family. how i care about my true friends.how i spent the last 15 years of my life trying to make sure that she was safe and happy. why i spent 6 fucking years to find her and save her. how i would call her and her father to find out how she was and what was going on.
maybe u should spend the time to find out why i gave up on everything in my life. skating rockets computers school and everything that made me truely happy. but u have never aken the time to find out shit about me that everyone else already knows. maybe u should talk to my mom and find out shit about me and my life. find out why i left school and never finished what i started. find out why i dont have 40928502582035823058023 friends like u do. or why i do plays and shit like that. or why i love to go o oregon and not talk to people for weeks or months at a time. or even years. try finding out something about be me before u belittle me to ur friends and say shit about things that u dont know.
oh and u thnk that im pretending to be a pro gamer? u want my fucking records and shit from every tournament that i ever played in? u want a list of tournaments that i won? want a fucking bank statement from my fucking account to see how much money i had at one point in time? before i wasted it on you and other shit that i did to help out friends and family? u know nothing about me at all. u think u do but u dont.
the smartest conversation i’ve had in awhile
recording the conversation i just had with my girlfriend chachii, because its something i need to remind myself when i’m being naive and just ignoring the big monsters in the corner.
LtlUnknown: so I read tu twitter y tumblr
LtlUnknown: what’s wrong my dear?
emblebee: jimmy being retarded as usual
emblebee: we had a huge fight this morning
LtlUnknown: I figured so
emblebee: cuz i wanted him to come back with me cuz i was all sickies and stuff
emblebee: and he doesnt like coming up to my place cuz he has ‘nothing to do’ and no money and no places to go up here
emblebee: and i was like WTF how is that ANY different from when youre at HOME
emblebee: and he was all i have 2 or 3 friends down here that will call me up occassionally and wanna do somthing and pay for me and stuff
LtlUnknown: mooch
emblebee: and i was like fuck that so apparently even though i fucking waste all the miles on my car, spend half of my fucking bank account on him, AND take him ou to eat and movies and shit up here doesnt count at fucking all
emblebee: and i was like seriosuly all you do is fucking sleep and play xbox shit all day, 99% of your friends are on xbox live and the others you only see like 3 times a fuckin YEAR
emblebee: is it THAT hard to get over yourself for two seconds and spend time with your fucking girlfriend, who is fucking sck out of her mind?!
emblebee: i got sooooo pissed
LtlUnknown: I figured so
LtlUnknown: I’d be hella pissed if a guy did that to me
emblebee: and apparently he punched his laundry/garage door and broke it and blamed me
emblebee: and i was like fuck you i didnt do shit, youre the one who doesnt appreciate one thing i fucking do for you AND doesnt even treat me like your fucking gf
LtlUnknown: I saw that on twitter
emblebee: yeah
emblebee: oh and this other guy has been sending me mixed signals and then kinda leaving me high and dry, especially this past weekend
emblebee: so its just like uuuugh fuck boys
LtlUnknown: exactly
LtlUnknown: boys are stupid
emblebee: very very stupid
emblebee: so i decided that since i dont work til 3pm on friday, i want to go out friday night and get plastered and hook up with someone just cuz i can
emblebee: lol
LtlUnknown: just be careful
LtlUnknown: and don’t get pregnant
LtlUnknown: or STDs
emblebee: hahaha no no no
emblebee: not that bad :p
emblebee: i’ll be careful ^^
LtlUnknown: good!
LtlUnknown: keep your legs closed!!
LtlUnknown: haha
emblebee: lol
emblebee: but yeah uuuugh im just like still so pissed off
emblebee: like i still care about him but ive wasted so much shit on him and gotten little to nothing back
LtlUnknown: yeah I can see that
LtlUnknown: he’s not even being a supportive boyfriend
emblebee: and i really just wanna like go back down there and fucking kick his ass until he understands why im so upset, and stops being so fucking selfish
emblebee: he’s not even being a boyfriend period
LtlUnknown: I didn’t even think you considered him one
emblebee: not really
emblebee: at least not since last summer
LtlUnknown: yeah
LtlUnknown: I’d just cut him loose Em
LtlUnknown: but that’s just me
emblebee: i know
LtlUnknown: I would have done that a while back
emblebee: its just like uuuugh
emblebee: he understands me better than anyone else i know
LtlUnknown: really?
emblebee: but he doesnt act on it very much or put much effort into our relationship
emblebee: yeah
emblebee: like he KNOWS me
emblebee: he just doesnt wanna put effort into anything
emblebee: not even his life, if you couldnt tell -.-
LtlUnknown: I can tell
emblebee: like he complains about not having a job and not having money and stuff
emblebee: and i just wanna fucking punch him in the face and be like you wont EVER get a job if all you apply for is gamestop and djing
LtlUnknown: gamestop doesn’t pay you shit
LtlUnknown: and he can dj?
emblebee: like boo fucking hoo you’re fucking 25 still living at your parents you need to fucking SUCK IT UP and get a job that you dont like until you can find one you can
emblebee: no he can’t dj, but he thinks he can do shit like that cuz of his old job setting up parties and shit
LtlUnknown: woooow
emblebee: like honestly he’s worse than fucking carol at this point
LtlUnknown: he doesn’t have any kind of degree does he
emblebee: he fucking does
emblebee: he is a fucking computer genius
emblebee: but he refuses to do SHIT with it
LtlUnknown: ….
emblebee: because he doesnt really like it
emblebee: its like are you fucking kidding me
LtlUnknown: welcome to the real world jimmy
LtlUnknown: gotta do things ou don’t like
emblebee: he could be richer than my fucking dad right now, who is a nuclear engineer, but he isnt cuz he doesnt want to
emblebee: fucking seriously!
emblebee: someone needs to fucking punch him in the face and throw him out on the street
emblebee: i swear to god i just wanna fucking yell in his face NOTHING IS GOING TO HAPPEN IN YOUR LIFE IF YOU DONT DO SHIT
LtlUnknown: I hold you punch?
emblebee: yes please
LtlUnknown: then help throw him out
emblebee: ugh his parents are just making it fuckin worse too
emblebee: like maddie lives at home and stuff but at least when she got laid off she TRIED to find a job and went to like 30 interviews and now has a new job and works and pays bills and shit
LtlUnknown: yeah
LtlUnknown: seriously
LtlUnknown: they baby him WAAAYYYY too much
LtlUnknown: if I was like that
LtlUnknown: holy crud my mom would kick me out of the house
emblebee: i know me too!
emblebee: my mom has kicked carol out multiple times cuz of this
emblebee: except at least she tried to get jobs/get hired before she started skipping work and shit
emblebee: he isnt even trying
emblebee: its just like
emblebee: i pity him sometimes cuz his life isnt going to go anywhere and he’s going to end up like one of those fucking ppl who is 52 and still living with his parents and pretending he is a pro gamer or wtf ever
if u think that is a smart conversation that u 2 had then you need to go back and rethink ur life. u belittled me for shit that u caused. u ignore the shit that i used to do for u and for everyone else. u dont understand things like a normaly friend would do. if u seriously think that little of me then why stick around? why talk to me at all?
i dont go around tlaking shit about u to people and i dont do that to any of my other friends. i dont go saying that u think ur going to be some famous painter or photographer or anthing like that.. i fucking helped u out with ur choices and pushed to get u motivated. u have done noting for me. u ignore the shit that i ask and u think that its all you. u dont realize anything that goes on unless u get ur way.
i dont know how many guys u fucked while we were going out but i know u did.. i can tell... the way u act about guys and all the texts and all of the flirting that u do and how u lead guys on and shit.. i know u have been fucking other guys and not telling me.. i made a fucking mistake and i spent more money and time on u that u will ever fucking admit.
i know u go out to bars and shit and hook up with guys and some of ur friends.. but im fucking done.. i have not done it and i made a mistake with jasmine.. i dont go around fucking other girls at all and i know u do other guys.. i can fucking tell.. i know how tight u get when u dont have sex for a month and after the last time u were fucking loose... nothing tight about it... and u were missing condoms from a brand new pack that u just bought like 2 days before? right... im retty sure that crystal and her boyfriend get their own.. oh wait.. there was like 4 used ones and a large box in the fucking bath room when i was there.... so i know something is up with that shit... i doubt that they used an entire 12 pack in 2 days.. and u were missing 2...
o and u think that u get nothing back? i spent sooo mch on u and never asked for anything back. u enjoy spending time with me and shit and staying here.. i dont like staying places where i dont feel welcome at... hence y i dont like going to ur place at all.. i never feel welcome thas y i dont fucking talk to anyone there or ur friends...i dont go out nd get drunk and hook up with random girls.. no i fucking stay and help my friends that are drunk and keep them safe.
unlike u. i know what u do. i know how much u lie and u shold know that i can fucking tell.. if u want to go fuck random guys go for it. im fucking done. dont expect me to talk to u again.
i know people that cna make me happy unconditionally who love me unconditionally and love me for me and would love to be with me. but i havent done jack shit to be with them. they know that i would too.. but i havent done shit to be with them. maybe u should see how some girls make me feel better than i ever could.. maybe if u met my friends that make me feel happy all the time u would realize how i have fun..
o and u think that my parents take care of me and pay for everything and u think that im a fucking mooch? sure.. whatever.. i fucking worked for everyting taht my parents got me.. will pas for me out of fucking respect and all the shit that i use to buy him with out him asking. so fuck u. u think that i never tried to find a fucking job when i fucking spent 6 god damn months every fucking day tring to get a fucking job and i gave up because im fucking over qualified for everything. i got a job at target because i lowered my fucking self to get it. i put that i was dumb as fuck and didnt know anything tht i actally do. so fuck you.
i do shit taht makes me happy. thats y i game and u would never and will never understand how much work i put into my life to get it how it is.. to have the friends that i do and to love the people that i do. you dont understand an actually bonding with people that become a fucking family to someone instaead of friends.. i dont ever fucking talk shit about u behind ur back. ever. i dont go bitching to my friends about how ur being a bitch or a whore and everything. i defend u from them when they fucking say shit about u... but i guess i should start talking shit about u and keep a fucking highschool/college mentality and let me lower my self to ur level to make people feel like shit.
i wish u could meet the people that i truely love and see exactly y i love them the way i do. i would of loved to have u here to meet jessy and see how much i fucking care for her and why. see why i spent 6 years trying to find out what happened to her and where she went. or even why i ahve so much respect for hr and her family. how i care about my true friends.how i spent the last 15 years of my life trying to make sure that she was safe and happy. why i spent 6 fucking years to find her and save her. how i would call her and her father to find out how she was and what was going on.
maybe u should spend the time to find out why i gave up on everything in my life. skating rockets computers school and everything that made me truely happy. but u have never aken the time to find out shit about me that everyone else already knows. maybe u should talk to my mom and find out shit about me and my life. find out why i left school and never finished what i started. find out why i dont have 40928502582035823058023 friends like u do. or why i do plays and shit like that. or why i love to go o oregon and not talk to people for weeks or months at a time. or even years. try finding out something about be me before u belittle me to ur friends and say shit about things that u dont know.
oh and u thnk that im pretending to be a pro gamer? u want my fucking records and shit from every tournament that i ever played in? u want a list of tournaments that i won? want a fucking bank statement from my fucking account to see how much money i had at one point in time? before i wasted it on you and other shit that i did to help out friends and family? u know nothing about me at all. u think u do but u dont.
the smartest conversation i’ve had in awhile
recording the conversation i just had with my girlfriend chachii, because its something i need to remind myself when i’m being naive and just ignoring the big monsters in the corner.
LtlUnknown: so I read tu twitter y tumblr
LtlUnknown: what’s wrong my dear?
emblebee: jimmy being retarded as usual
emblebee: we had a huge fight this morning
LtlUnknown: I figured so
emblebee: cuz i wanted him to come back with me cuz i was all sickies and stuff
emblebee: and he doesnt like coming up to my place cuz he has ‘nothing to do’ and no money and no places to go up here
emblebee: and i was like WTF how is that ANY different from when youre at HOME
emblebee: and he was all i have 2 or 3 friends down here that will call me up occassionally and wanna do somthing and pay for me and stuff
LtlUnknown: mooch
emblebee: and i was like fuck that so apparently even though i fucking waste all the miles on my car, spend half of my fucking bank account on him, AND take him ou to eat and movies and shit up here doesnt count at fucking all
emblebee: and i was like seriosuly all you do is fucking sleep and play xbox shit all day, 99% of your friends are on xbox live and the others you only see like 3 times a fuckin YEAR
emblebee: is it THAT hard to get over yourself for two seconds and spend time with your fucking girlfriend, who is fucking sck out of her mind?!
emblebee: i got sooooo pissed
LtlUnknown: I figured so
LtlUnknown: I’d be hella pissed if a guy did that to me
emblebee: and apparently he punched his laundry/garage door and broke it and blamed me
emblebee: and i was like fuck you i didnt do shit, youre the one who doesnt appreciate one thing i fucking do for you AND doesnt even treat me like your fucking gf
LtlUnknown: I saw that on twitter
emblebee: yeah
emblebee: oh and this other guy has been sending me mixed signals and then kinda leaving me high and dry, especially this past weekend
emblebee: so its just like uuuugh fuck boys
LtlUnknown: exactly
LtlUnknown: boys are stupid
emblebee: very very stupid
emblebee: so i decided that since i dont work til 3pm on friday, i want to go out friday night and get plastered and hook up with someone just cuz i can
emblebee: lol
LtlUnknown: just be careful
LtlUnknown: and don’t get pregnant
LtlUnknown: or STDs
emblebee: hahaha no no no
emblebee: not that bad :p
emblebee: i’ll be careful ^^
LtlUnknown: good!
LtlUnknown: keep your legs closed!!
LtlUnknown: haha
emblebee: lol
emblebee: but yeah uuuugh im just like still so pissed off
emblebee: like i still care about him but ive wasted so much shit on him and gotten little to nothing back
LtlUnknown: yeah I can see that
LtlUnknown: he’s not even being a supportive boyfriend
emblebee: and i really just wanna like go back down there and fucking kick his ass until he understands why im so upset, and stops being so fucking selfish
emblebee: he’s not even being a boyfriend period
LtlUnknown: I didn’t even think you considered him one
emblebee: not really
emblebee: at least not since last summer
LtlUnknown: yeah
LtlUnknown: I’d just cut him loose Em
LtlUnknown: but that’s just me
emblebee: i know
LtlUnknown: I would have done that a while back
emblebee: its just like uuuugh
emblebee: he understands me better than anyone else i know
LtlUnknown: really?
emblebee: but he doesnt act on it very much or put much effort into our relationship
emblebee: yeah
emblebee: like he KNOWS me
emblebee: he just doesnt wanna put effort into anything
emblebee: not even his life, if you couldnt tell -.-
LtlUnknown: I can tell
emblebee: like he complains about not having a job and not having money and stuff
emblebee: and i just wanna fucking punch him in the face and be like you wont EVER get a job if all you apply for is gamestop and djing
LtlUnknown: gamestop doesn’t pay you shit
LtlUnknown: and he can dj?
emblebee: like boo fucking hoo you’re fucking 25 still living at your parents you need to fucking SUCK IT UP and get a job that you dont like until you can find one you can
emblebee: no he can’t dj, but he thinks he can do shit like that cuz of his old job setting up parties and shit
LtlUnknown: woooow
emblebee: like honestly he’s worse than fucking carol at this point
LtlUnknown: he doesn’t have any kind of degree does he
emblebee: he fucking does
emblebee: he is a fucking computer genius
emblebee: but he refuses to do SHIT with it
LtlUnknown: ….
emblebee: because he doesnt really like it
emblebee: its like are you fucking kidding me
LtlUnknown: welcome to the real world jimmy
LtlUnknown: gotta do things ou don’t like
emblebee: he could be richer than my fucking dad right now, who is a nuclear engineer, but he isnt cuz he doesnt want to
emblebee: fucking seriously!
emblebee: someone needs to fucking punch him in the face and throw him out on the street
emblebee: i swear to god i just wanna fucking yell in his face NOTHING IS GOING TO HAPPEN IN YOUR LIFE IF YOU DONT DO SHIT
LtlUnknown: I hold you punch?
emblebee: yes please
LtlUnknown: then help throw him out
emblebee: ugh his parents are just making it fuckin worse too
emblebee: like maddie lives at home and stuff but at least when she got laid off she TRIED to find a job and went to like 30 interviews and now has a new job and works and pays bills and shit
LtlUnknown: yeah
LtlUnknown: seriously
LtlUnknown: they baby him WAAAYYYY too much
LtlUnknown: if I was like that
LtlUnknown: holy crud my mom would kick me out of the house
emblebee: i know me too!
emblebee: my mom has kicked carol out multiple times cuz of this
emblebee: except at least she tried to get jobs/get hired before she started skipping work and shit
emblebee: he isnt even trying
emblebee: its just like
emblebee: i pity him sometimes cuz his life isnt going to go anywhere and he’s going to end up like one of those fucking ppl who is 52 and still living with his parents and pretending he is a pro gamer or wtf ever
if u think that is a smart conversation that u 2 had then you need to go back and rethink ur life. u belittled me for shit that u caused. u ignore the shit that i used to do for u and for everyone else. u dont understand things like a normaly friend would do. if u seriously think that little of me then why stick around? why talk to me at all?
i dont go around tlaking shit about u to people and i dont do that to any of my other friends. i dont go saying that u think ur going to be some famous painter or photographer or anthing like that.. i fucking helped u out with ur choices and pushed to get u motivated. u have done noting for me. u ignore the shit that i ask and u think that its all you. u dont realize anything that goes on unless u get ur way.