domesticating you until you look just like me, i am wrong and of these things i repent.

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i've been a christian since i was eight years old, but recently i've been working out my faith to determine whether i truly believe what i do or if i have simply inherited the faith of my family members. i've been struggling with it a lot. i've question the validity and instruction of the bible. i've tried to justify actions i know my savior doesn't wish me to take part in. and i haven't repented of much. i sin. i recognize my sin. i move on. without crying out and asking jesus to forgive me for loving him yet living my life with complete disregard for the sacrifice he made for me. this week i repented and ran back to him. i repented for not believing the gospel. for not truly believing he was sufficient. for living like i've never heard truth.

i heard truth this week. i saw the power of praise and prayer when one of my girls was taken from camp to the emergency room late one night. i confirmed that my faith is my own. my faith is alive and growing. and i set standards for my life. standards that should have been in place a long time ago. i have amazing friends. people i can be honest with. share my struggles without judgment. i am a lucky girl. jesus loves me and it's time for me to start living what i believe.

i had fun at camp. CHEW SHOE!! girls. boys. games. sun. jesus. it was perfect. i'd love to tell you more. just ask.

i repent of parading my liberty
i repent of paying for what i get for free
and for the way i believe that i am living right
of trading sins for others that are easier to hide
i am wrong and of these things i repent
(derek webb: i repent)