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[xepitomeofmex]

so, here I sit in boredom with nothing to do but swelter in the heat. Nobody to hang out wiv.. everyone is too busy, not around or doesn't like me any more.. surprise surprise. Anyways.. have nothing to do lately... school is out.. Juztin still is in school and working all the time.. he calls me every day but I still miss him oh so much. havent seen him since we dropped him off at work on Saturday morning.. this is torture.. cant even see my fiance. *sigh* atleast in a few weeks im moving down there to be with him. Moving in with Fred and Becca in Saco till Juztin and I get our apartment.. I've been thinkin more about it and I think that im going to go back to Portland High next year.. I only really have Amanda left at BHS and I dunno.. i just think it would be better for me if I got outta the small town drama and back into my city element wiv more friends and by the side of my fiance. Id get to be wiv Cristin and other friends... and even living in Saco for a while ill get to go see all my Biddo kiddos and stuff.. Biddeford is right next to Saco! =D anyways. made plans all day yesterday for our trip to Vieques, Puerto Rico. Going for a week in the beginning of August... =D its gonna be awesome.. my dad was being all meh to me about wanting to let me go coz he didnt wanna pay.. even tho he paid for my sister to go to England.. and I was really upset coz Hannah and I have really wanted to go together for a while now and Juztin knew I was upset and was being such a fuckin sweetie he offered to pay for me to go.. Id never let him pay that much for me but definitely the thought of him thinkin of doing that was the sweetest thing in the world.. nobody has ever offered so much to me in a blink of an eye... He is the world to me.. thank you darling. I love you so much. Hannah and I have been getting alot closer.. she is my best friend and I dont know what I would do without her.. she has never lied to me and that means the world to me. Thank you so much. I appreciate it.. she is always at my side when I need her, helping me like a actual true friend should. She doesnt get mad at me for no reason at all and never bitches at me. I really appreciate it coz I try so hard for my friends.. atleast you shows that she appreciates it as well. My only friend that cares about me.. other people say they care yet they are all liars. They pretend to care but they are actually stuck on themselves thinkin the world revolves just around them and that they are never in fault.. yea well take a look around, you lose everything by thinking that way.

bah.. just kinda depressed lately.. miss Juztin SO much.. everything about him I miss.. the way he holds me and tells me he loves me.. *sigh* god I miss him. I love him so much. Thank you for being part of my life baby <3