miniscule insignificant things are never worth depression and suffering...
so anyways. long fuckin ass week. *sigh* horrible as hell... I hate everything.. I hate everyone.. and nothing is going right.
but im not so sure that i care.
everything seems so insignificant compared to the important things.. so okie.. people are losing interest in me rapidly.. that shouldnt matter compared to.. oh hey, my grandfather who i love with all my fuckin heart and more is dying in the hospital right now.. slowly drifting away.
I realized in my unsleeping stupor in the last couple days.. that yes i care that people are losing interest in me and it makes me sad.. but there are far worse things to be sad about... like grampa. Who the fuck cares if everyone hates me.. my family is whats important.. they are the only ones around in the end.
*le sigh* im so sick and tired of everything.. of all lifes constant shit.. its sooo depressing.. and i dont want to deal with it.. *frown*
anyways.. whatever. im tired. im drained. im depressed. and i dont care.
so im going now.
but im not so sure that i care.
everything seems so insignificant compared to the important things.. so okie.. people are losing interest in me rapidly.. that shouldnt matter compared to.. oh hey, my grandfather who i love with all my fuckin heart and more is dying in the hospital right now.. slowly drifting away.
I realized in my unsleeping stupor in the last couple days.. that yes i care that people are losing interest in me and it makes me sad.. but there are far worse things to be sad about... like grampa. Who the fuck cares if everyone hates me.. my family is whats important.. they are the only ones around in the end.
*le sigh* im so sick and tired of everything.. of all lifes constant shit.. its sooo depressing.. and i dont want to deal with it.. *frown*
anyways.. whatever. im tired. im drained. im depressed. and i dont care.
so im going now.