Just A Ramble
It's been a while since i've ranted about anything and everything..so why not. Might as well get it out of my system now.. Hmmm...
People will either kill off the weak or endeavor to save them. Neither happened nor will it.... With my own hand I will kill off my weakness and endeavore to save myself. The thoughts are harsh...but a razor harsher. Wishing and waiting never got things accomplished and they never will...i know this now..
Absence of regret opens every door and makes anything possible.
I always tried to take the easy way out.
But somewhere in the midst of all this madness (most coming from heart and soul) I've managed to keep my head level to some degree..trying to keep it always an inch or two above the water, keep myself just sane enough to remember to breathe when the burning in my lungs gets to be unbearable.
I refuse to regret the past, I refuse to look forward to regretting future actions.
I refuse to accept stereotypes as being anything more than the insecurities of society being outwardly directed at a grouping of people. I refuse to accept the idea of sexual orientation defining who you are as a person. I refuse to accept the way you dress as meaning anything else other than what you want it to. I refuse to accept that public education will better you in the long run, as I have learned everything I'll ever need to know outside of the classroom setting; no teacher or professor could teach me everything I've learned about the human psyche and the way the brain works according to various stimuli, for example.... I refuse to accept the idea of discrimination, bcus it is just a demonstration of internal anger and distaste bred from an underlying fear of the unknown. I refuse to accept that silence is not a form of communication. I refuse to accept monotony just as an excuse to avoid thinking in abstract ways.
I refuse to accept a smile from a stranger without giving them one in return. I refuse to accept indifference, bcus it is an example of being fearful of your own ideas being vocalized and heard. I refuse to accept fear. I refuse to accept the idea of gender being anything more than physical anatomy. I refuse to accept any concept of morality or immorality, bcus both are opinions, and can never be fully agreed upon. Not everyone thinks the same. I refuse to accept the concept of marriage, bcus you should be able to live with someone whom you love and adore without needing a band of metal and a legal document granting permission...love means more than polished gold and a sheet of dried wood pulp with words on it... typed in generic ink. I refuse to accept that hatred is anything but fear. I refuse to accept that liking something out-of-the-ordinary makes you eccentric or bizarre. That's just a crock of bullshit. I refuse to accept the idea that people cannot change the way they are. I refuse to accept the concept of social status, bcus such systems feed off of arrogance and desolation. We're individiuals..be yourself. I refuse to accept that being submissive means giving up your own thoughts and ideas. As selfish as that may sound..oh well..
Some days, living becomes too difficult. But dying is never an option that I've been given. But i'm going to keep trying anyway. It's a new year and all..Maybe things will be better. I'm hoping.. Cheers..to me.