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I haven't been sad in such a long time I don't even know what to do about it anymore. I can't even trace it back to any one reason either. It just is the way it is. I guess before I could blame it on loneliness or something, but now I'm just so upset I push away anything that could be a comfort.
It's not Mark's fault. I didn't mean to bite at him. Him calling me on the phone and saying he wanted to move in with his shit of a friend to campus housing next year so he can go abroad spring semester. I was just frustrated, not mad, but I guess it all sounds the same. I just hung up on him and I mean, I've never acted like this around him before. Irrational, sad... crazy. This isn't me. Or maybe it is.
It's not Mark's fault. I didn't mean to bite at him. Him calling me on the phone and saying he wanted to move in with his shit of a friend to campus housing next year so he can go abroad spring semester. I was just frustrated, not mad, but I guess it all sounds the same. I just hung up on him and I mean, I've never acted like this around him before. Irrational, sad... crazy. This isn't me. Or maybe it is.