sigh
I have currently placed myself in my own private hell right now. My russian is still not talking to me, I understand were fighting but we have never fought this long, or gone this long without talking in general. I am past the hurt phase and have moved on to anger, I am so mad that he can tell me he loves me and cares about me and than leave me without a call. He knows how upset I am and I am starting to get the picture he might not care. I am at a loss of what to do, I don't want to move on, cause I may be loosing the best thing thats ever happened to me. But I don't want to harass.. grr this is so confusing, I know he is trying to take some time, do what he thinks is best for the both of us, but it is upsetting me so bad right now. I saw him today and neither of us said a word to each other, and that is the most depressing thing ever after everything we have been through. this is life though right. whoopdidoo.... someone get me some valium and a couple days off.