Every day with you is another day I will wake up smiling.
Okay..
I am officially happy about everything in my life right now. My boyfriend and my best friend are actually getting along.. this makes me really fucking happy.. cause the chance that this would happen was rare. Work is going better than it was.. I am not so fucking terrified to go to work now. I am just happy all the time. Things with oleg are better than I ever expected they would be.. I didn't expect to be this close with a guy.. to find something like this.. right now in my life, exspecially with him.. but I would never wish it different. I am starting to realize that it just might be possible to find that one thing I was looking for.. to find someone so close to what I wanted.. the walls of all the insecurities of prior relationships, of failed relationships are just falling down more and more everyday, I used to be so fucking scared to approach anything like this after all that happened, But I can't remember the last time I was this happy. I used to say I havn't been this happy since I was 14, but thats not true. I am not who I was at 14, I have more experinces, I am smarter now, I understand things differently. So I can honestly sayn this is a entirely new thing to me. Yes I may talk about this alot or him but it's a big part of my life, what else am I going to talk about, what I did or where I went or some silly incident in my life, no I am going to talk about the things that have happened that will change my life. ahh I am a loser.
I am officially happy about everything in my life right now. My boyfriend and my best friend are actually getting along.. this makes me really fucking happy.. cause the chance that this would happen was rare. Work is going better than it was.. I am not so fucking terrified to go to work now. I am just happy all the time. Things with oleg are better than I ever expected they would be.. I didn't expect to be this close with a guy.. to find something like this.. right now in my life, exspecially with him.. but I would never wish it different. I am starting to realize that it just might be possible to find that one thing I was looking for.. to find someone so close to what I wanted.. the walls of all the insecurities of prior relationships, of failed relationships are just falling down more and more everyday, I used to be so fucking scared to approach anything like this after all that happened, But I can't remember the last time I was this happy. I used to say I havn't been this happy since I was 14, but thats not true. I am not who I was at 14, I have more experinces, I am smarter now, I understand things differently. So I can honestly sayn this is a entirely new thing to me. Yes I may talk about this alot or him but it's a big part of my life, what else am I going to talk about, what I did or where I went or some silly incident in my life, no I am going to talk about the things that have happened that will change my life. ahh I am a loser.