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I've been working out. A lot. The past few days have been hell, and I've been trying to keep my mind off of things. Well, one thing, really.
Him.
He's not around, and won't be until February. It's driving me crazy. I mean, I remember going through this before, but I don't remember being this upset. Was I? Or worse.. was I not? Even so, the fact that I'm this upset right now only serves to prove something. I do love him, moreso with each day.
Granted.. I'm so nervous about what happens in less than a month.
But I'm also happy, excited, the works.. I talked to my dad (who happens to be a slight bit racist) today.. I know that he would have a problem with me being with someone of a highly different skin colour.. but I didn't know how he felt about other nationalities.
"Daddy.. my boyfrined is German.. you don't have a problem with that, do you?"
".. We all come from Europe anyway, don't we?"
Total score. It's not a problem at all. And I know that's a really stupid thing to worry about, and even if he had a problem with it, it wouldn't have changed anything. I guess I'm just trying to somewhat get him prepared, and also myself for any problems that may lay in the wake of this as well.
Although it's going to be a drastic leap, I still want things to transition and adjust as smoothly as possible. I guess that makes sense, doesn't it? That, and I already talked to Bri's mom about having her go to the airport with me. Even though it's a school night, she's completely cool with it. I guess it's because I was there for Bri when the whole Victor thing happened.
Having the appartment is going to be nice, that's for sure.. I'll have a bit of time to adjust to being away from home before I leave for basic trainning, but I'll still be close to home at the same time. It'll be a fairly comfotable transition for me.. and I'm going to do my best to make it as comfortable for him, as well.
Then again, if he gets frustrated, there's a gym about three blocks away.
Whew. Big, big changes.. but, it's going to work out. Even though I'm nervous, it's the good kind of nervous. Mm.. I guess that's just excitement and anticipation. But everything will be fine, I'm sure of it.
And damn, I wrote too much. That's enough for today.
Him.
He's not around, and won't be until February. It's driving me crazy. I mean, I remember going through this before, but I don't remember being this upset. Was I? Or worse.. was I not? Even so, the fact that I'm this upset right now only serves to prove something. I do love him, moreso with each day.
Granted.. I'm so nervous about what happens in less than a month.
But I'm also happy, excited, the works.. I talked to my dad (who happens to be a slight bit racist) today.. I know that he would have a problem with me being with someone of a highly different skin colour.. but I didn't know how he felt about other nationalities.
"Daddy.. my boyfrined is German.. you don't have a problem with that, do you?"
".. We all come from Europe anyway, don't we?"
Total score. It's not a problem at all. And I know that's a really stupid thing to worry about, and even if he had a problem with it, it wouldn't have changed anything. I guess I'm just trying to somewhat get him prepared, and also myself for any problems that may lay in the wake of this as well.
Although it's going to be a drastic leap, I still want things to transition and adjust as smoothly as possible. I guess that makes sense, doesn't it? That, and I already talked to Bri's mom about having her go to the airport with me. Even though it's a school night, she's completely cool with it. I guess it's because I was there for Bri when the whole Victor thing happened.
Having the appartment is going to be nice, that's for sure.. I'll have a bit of time to adjust to being away from home before I leave for basic trainning, but I'll still be close to home at the same time. It'll be a fairly comfotable transition for me.. and I'm going to do my best to make it as comfortable for him, as well.
Then again, if he gets frustrated, there's a gym about three blocks away.
Whew. Big, big changes.. but, it's going to work out. Even though I'm nervous, it's the good kind of nervous. Mm.. I guess that's just excitement and anticipation. But everything will be fine, I'm sure of it.
And damn, I wrote too much. That's enough for today.