and they shut his eyes as i said my last goodbyes...
well... today was another depressing day for my family and me.
school was ok and then i left early to go to the viewing at some funeral home downtown. we got there early so we had to wait in the car for about 10 minutes. they said we could come in and they led us to the room. my grandma and my uncle john *who hadnt seen him yet* went to him first and my grandma started balling. then my dad went up and such. when he sat down i went up. his eyes were closed and his mouth was closed to. my grandma said he looked so peaceful and not in pain. and he did. im glad that he is finally in heaven where he can walk again. my dad asked me to take some pictures and stuff. i went outside to get a hold of bryan but i couldnt. and i saw my uncle stan pull up so i showed him to the room and my grandma clung to him. they all stood around him and i stood by the podium so i could see to and my grandma was just talking to him. telling him that he was a great husband, that he was her only love, and that she loved taking care of him till the end. it was so touching i couldnt stop crying. they all started talking about what the first thing they remembered when it came to thinking about grandpa. my dad asked me and i said when he would take me for walks when i was about 4 or 5.
he would walk me to the corner of wagon train and smoke house, and everytime he did there would be a dog in the window of the house across the street and it would always bark and my grandpa would sing me this song "how much is that doggie in the window" and i remember the one time that he would walk with me as i rode my plastic tricycle and i remember this one day i turned to soon and fell off the curb and busted my lip and my grandpa took me to the e.r. to get stitches. and he would always be in the car waiting to pick me up from school when i was in kindergarden and he would drive me home and i would inside do my homework and then watch his cable tv because i didnt have it. and then whenever my dad would yell at me or if my parents lef the house i would have him to be with. and then when i started mowing the lawn for them... everyday i would try to leave because i didnt like doing it for the money because they were family but he wouldnt let me leave until i took the $20...
some sad memories i have are when he had to start using that walker thing and he couldnt walk with me around the neighborhood anymore. and then one time he went out to get the mail and fell and no one was around to help him but finally our neighbor came home. that wasnt a good day. and it would always hurt me deep inside to see him breathe, cuz he would always seem to cough and if he didnt u could him all the tobacco crap in his throat from smoking so much and to watch him struggle to walk and to see that he couldnt make it to the bathroom in time... it was just so painful.
im glad i got to spend my time with him tho. he was an amazing grandpa unlike my other one... my mom said that the words my grandpa taught me were "what the hell" !!! and that i would run around the house and scream what the hell and that he would just laugh.
ok n e ways. so we could only stay till 5 and at 5... my grandma said he last goodbye and so did my dad, uncle john, uncle stan and then me. i didnt touch him at all when we were there until i said goodbye. after feeling his cold lifeless body with my hands i knew that this was my last time to ever see him again. i kissed him on the forhead and said good bye and gave him a hug. and walked out of the room. and we got into the car and went out for sushi... i think the only interesting thing was this 19 year old saw me outside and hit on me... and asked for my number. i gave him a fake one and i gave him a fake name. his face was sooo funny looking when i told him i was 14... 15 in march
yeah so now im home...
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