Your Silhouette
2am nightmare
Wakes me again
But the bad dream arrives
When I open my eyes
And I do not see your silhouette
I can’t reach out and touch your skin
There’s no one to help me sleep again
I can’t feel your arms around me
Can’t feel your chest rising
I can’t even hate you for ignoring me
In the dark
Like you used to do sometimes.
And It would be so much easier
If all you did was commit hateful crimes
If there was nothing redeeming
And no memories worth repeating
No fear that I felt
Or If my heart wasn’t bleeding
If I didn’t know how good it felt
With your skin at my back
With your hand in my hand
The only peace I had
Was with you
Lord break my heart open
And pour out the salt
Free me of all this pain and doubt
Make the memories fade
Until I don’t know your face
Or remember your name
Or remember the silhouette of your frame
God Grant me desensitization
Or the love-amnesia
You’ve gifted me before
I want to close my eyes
And feel like you’re there
Let me feel your skin
Let me touch your hair
As the tears chase my cheeks
And my skin feels wet
I’ll keep my eyes closed
Because I cannot see
Your silhouette.