There are no winners…at least not for me.
No matter how hard I try to do the things you ask of me……no matter how much I work for it……no matter how bad I want it…..i fail. It wont matter if I change. It wont matter if I do the things you want. I come in last place everytime. Its so hard to do the things you want from me when I get nothing for an outcome. I would do anything in the world to change what will happen but of course….this battles not mine. I could work so hard till I bled from my pores and I would still be turned away. I guess its what I deserve. I could have been better. I should have. If only I could change what Ive done to make you feel the way you do. I care about you so fucking much. Im only sorry I couldn’t be what you want. i will miss you more than you will ever know. There are no winners…at least not for me.
p.s. pilgrims waited years to find a new hope.....i waited 3 for you.
p.s. pilgrims waited years to find a new hope.....i waited 3 for you.