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Wow, life is moving exponentially fast and I feel like I'm just being swept along for the ride. In about three weeks I'll be hiking in the Grand Canyon and Arizona desert with only a sleeping bag and tarp. And after I'll be living in a two story house that sounds a bit like a co-op with a teacher and four other PC students. I'm really scared that I won't be able to hold my own on this hiking trip. It'll be three weeks of rough terrain and carrying about fifty percent of my weight just in my pack alone. I've started walking to work to break in the boots, but I'm not sure that's enough. To top this off, my sister -as glad as I am to see her, is now moving to Arizona with me. We won't be living together, but she's in a stressful place in her life, and I don't really know how to comfort or help her. For the past four years she's done better than I have and now it's flipped. Our situations have reversed, now suddenly I've got my shit together and her life is falling apart. She's looking at me like I'm the responsible one who knows how this is all going to play out but I don't. I'm so scared. I just know I'm gonna hit the ground running. I'll be meeting people and writing papers and moving again. I don't know anybody, I don't know how this hiking orientation will be, and I don't know what the college looks like. Although, I did just find out that I have a 2nd cousin named Jack( who I'd never even heard of until now) who will be starting at Prescott at the same time I'll be there and that he'll probably be on the same hiking trip. I just feel like I want to jump around and laugh and cry and freak out because everything is coming together at once.