It's odd how we found the precise opposite things to focus on in season 6. I never paid much attention to Willow and the magic addiction ... but given what I know of your life, it makes total sense to me that that would jump out to you. I was just so utterly focused on Buffy's journey.
When I watched the first three episodes of season 6 at Jeanine & Bill's, Bill turned to us and rolled his eyes and said, "Welcome to season 6," like he thought the angst was just over the top. And maybe part of it is me being an insane angst addict ... which I'm not really apologizing for, lol.
But so much of what Buffy said rang true to me. She got it right ... hopefully without going into too much personal detail ... that's exactly what it feels like to be unwillingly rescued from a suicide attempt. That the world is hard and cruel, and bright, that you've gone from knowing why you are, why you exist, to being uncertain again, from peace back into violence. And it's also a huge struggle to tell anyone that. Not because it's over-vulnerable, but because you're afraid of hurting them, you're afraid that you'll send the message that their attempts aren't enough -- so instead you hide it, the worst pain of your life.
I love the way Willow and the others found out in song, and then there was no attempt to hide or cover it ... there was the scene where they were talking about it among themselves and trying to rescue Buffy, and then just admitted there was nothing they could do. And I love the way that gradually Buffy finds her purpose again, and that when she finds out why she's back, then she's okay. Because that's what it's like too. You need that answer. You need to know why. Otherwise it's just sound and motion, everything meaningless under the sun, but once you know why, then it's all different, and no matter how painful, it's all possible.
Buffy's answer was that she wanted to see Dawn grow up. She wanted to show her sister the world. She cried in relief that she was going to go on after all. In my opinion, the entire season cumulates in that moment. When Buffy is alive and glad of it, and Dawn is united with her big sister and glad of it, and the world will continue to turn ... oh, yeah, and Dawn's just kicked some butt, and Willow is sobbing her heart out in Xander's arms.
But Tara's death was still very, very painful, and I don't mean to diminish that, or to put my season 6 gush in your lj instead of just using mine. But this season is really important to me, you know? I'd love to talk about it further. For now, I'll just honor Tara with you. Tara was beautiful, and powerful, and we'll miss her tremendously.
I loved parts of season 6- and I totally get Buffy's feelings about being back, and feeling lost- it was just hard to watch, and I hated the distance that had come up between them all.
Much of the last few eiposdes was hard for me because when Willow and Tara got back together, it was so beautiful- but I knew it wouldn't last. I knew what was coming (at least, in part).
But I have to admit that after Tara got blown away right in front of Willow, I really didn't care anymore about anything or anyone else. I kind of went to a dark place much like Willow, in fact.
I'll have to watch it all over again, someday, and maybe see things in a different light. Maybe...
When I watched the first three episodes of season 6 at Jeanine & Bill's, Bill turned to us and rolled his eyes and said, "Welcome to season 6," like he thought the angst was just over the top. And maybe part of it is me being an insane angst addict ... which I'm not really apologizing for, lol.
But so much of what Buffy said rang true to me. She got it right ... hopefully without going into too much personal detail ... that's exactly what it feels like to be unwillingly rescued from a suicide attempt. That the world is hard and cruel, and bright, that you've gone from knowing why you are, why you exist, to being uncertain again, from peace back into violence. And it's also a huge struggle to tell anyone that. Not because it's over-vulnerable, but because you're afraid of hurting them, you're afraid that you'll send the message that their attempts aren't enough -- so instead you hide it, the worst pain of your life.
I love the way Willow and the others found out in song, and then there was no attempt to hide or cover it ... there was the scene where they were talking about it among themselves and trying to rescue Buffy, and then just admitted there was nothing they could do. And I love the way that gradually Buffy finds her purpose again, and that when she finds out why she's back, then she's okay. Because that's what it's like too. You need that answer. You need to know why. Otherwise it's just sound and motion, everything meaningless under the sun, but once you know why, then it's all different, and no matter how painful, it's all possible.
Buffy's answer was that she wanted to see Dawn grow up. She wanted to show her sister the world. She cried in relief that she was going to go on after all. In my opinion, the entire season cumulates in that moment. When Buffy is alive and glad of it, and Dawn is united with her big sister and glad of it, and the world will continue to turn ... oh, yeah, and Dawn's just kicked some butt, and Willow is sobbing her heart out in Xander's arms.
But Tara's death was still very, very painful, and I don't mean to diminish that, or to put my season 6 gush in your lj instead of just using mine. But this season is really important to me, you know? I'd love to talk about it further. For now, I'll just honor Tara with you. Tara was beautiful, and powerful, and we'll miss her tremendously.
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Much of the last few eiposdes was hard for me because when Willow and Tara got back together, it was so beautiful- but I knew it wouldn't last. I knew what was coming (at least, in part).
But I have to admit that after Tara got blown away right in front of Willow, I really didn't care anymore about anything or anyone else. I kind of went to a dark place much like Willow, in fact.
I'll have to watch it all over again, someday, and maybe see things in a different light. Maybe...
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