Devil Ride 55B/57
Title: Devil Ride
Author: xenalvr
Fandom: Guiding Light
Pairing: Olivia/Natalia
Rating: NC-17
Warnings and Disclaimer: CBS, P&G, Telenext et. al. own these characters, not me.
This story is set in an alternate universe, where Natalia Rivera's history and timeline are greatly altered. Most of Olivia Spencer's history remain intact. It contains adult themes and language, and deals with the sex industry, which might not be to everyone's taste, so please do NOT proceed if you are not of age or if any of that might offend you.
I've decided not to worry too much about pre-Otalia plotline discrepancy as this is an AU after all.
*
Natalia awoke with a jerk. Scattered images of her dream left her breathing raggedly. Her heart hammered in her chest as she gasped silently with a hand around the base of her throat, conscious of Olivia sleeping next to her, faced away from her.
When both her heart and breathing calmed down, Natalia gently placed her palm against Olivia's back to ascertain that Olivia was both alive and really there. She scooted closer to Olivia, drawn by the warmth that Olivia emanated like a moth to the flame. Pressing the length of her body against Olivia's back, Natalia closed her eyes briefly as she inhaled the familiar scent of Olivia's hair and skin. Then she curved her arm and lightly cupped Olivia's rounded shoulder as she buried her face in Olivia's hair and exposed nape.
She felt Olivia shift in her sleep, unconsciously searching out her hand to pull around herself and to her lips. Natalia smiled in the dark, thankful to be where she was, relatively unscathed from her confrontation with Mallet. Things could have turned out so very differently. She shuddered at the memory of Mallet's gun pointing at Olivia, of Mallet's strong grip on her, of Mallet heading towards Olivia with ill-intent.
"Natalia?"
Surprised by Olivia's sleep-rusted voice, Natalia took a moment before she responded. "Hm?" She placed a kiss on Olivia's shoulder.
"You're thinking." It wasn't a question. Natalia frowned as Olivia turned to face her.
"I... how did you know?" Natalia asked in a soft whisper, as though anything louder than that would shatter the peace around them. Her lips curved up slightly in a faint smile when she was met with gray-hued features of the woman she loved. She lifted a hand to push errant hairs out of Olivia's face before trailing her fingers down Olivia's cheek and neck, fascinated by the smooth texture under her fingertips. Olivia shrugged sleepily and breathed out a soft whimper at her touch, causing her smile to deepen and her chest to expand.
They hadn't spoken about what had happened; in fact, they hadn't spoken much at all since they left her old apartment. The silence had been good. It had allowed Natalia to come to terms with what had happened, and to think about what laid ahead.
She had finished her shower long before Olivia had finished her bath--during which, she had listened to a voice message that Olivia had left her earlier that day. Now, in the hazy place between slumber and full wakefulness, in the pre-dawn darkness, she was reminded of it again.
"Can hear you thinking..." Olivia mumbled as she cracked open an eye. She stifled a yawn and rubbed at her eyes.
Natalia quirked another smile at that. "Sorry," she breathed out. "I'll try to be quieter."
"Tell me what you thinkin'," Olivia said, pulling Natalia closer and pushing her face against the crook of Natalia's neck. Natalia gasped softly when she felt sharp teeth scraping across her pulse point.
"I was just thinking about what you said," Natalia murmured, shifting to give Olivia more access to her neck. In the short moment that Olivia stopped her ministrations to think, Natalia could feel her frown.
"Oh. To Mallet?" Olivia asked before she resumed nuzzling Natalia's neck, making her squirm and sigh.
"No..." Natalia said breathlessly as her eyes fluttered shut. One of Olivia's hands snuck under her robe and its slow, purposeful trek caused her skin to blush and tingle. She let out a moan and, upon hearing herself, blinked and choked out, "God, Olivia... I can't think when you... do that..."
"Sorry," Olivia murmured, not sounding apologetic at all. But she ceased her movements, and Natalia wasn't sure how she felt about that.
"The voice message that you left me, on my cell," Natalia said finally when she found her thoughts again. She opened her eyes just in time to see Olivia open hers.
"Yeah, what about it?" Olivia asked, running her eyes up and down Natalia's face before she smiled faintly. "You're so beautiful."
Natalia flushed at the unexpected compliment, then shrugged. "Nothing. You asked what I was thinking about. I was thinking about that." Then she brought up a hand and rested it at the base of Olivia's jaw. "I'm sorry I worried you. I'm sorry I took your car. But..." she said, trailing off.
"But... you'd do it again?" Olivia prompted, her brows furrowing.
Natalia took a breath as she looked for the words to express herself. "I'm not sorry that I did what I did," she said finally, tearing her eyes away from Olivia's face and focussing her attention on Olivia's throat. She fiddled with the collar of Olivia's robe absently. "I'd never forgive myself if he'd hurt you or Emma." Then she lifted her eyes to Olivia's again. "I... I'm not prepared for a life without you in it either," she said in a hoarse whisper, a little horrified at the sudden surge of emotion in her chest. She took a shaky breath and wiped at an invisible tear.
Nothing about their relationship was conventional: not the way that they had met, gotten to know each other, fallen in love. So it wasn't surprising at all for Natalia to find herself feeling this much for Olivia at such an early stage of their relationship. They had been through a lot and had been there for each other in the short time that they had known each other. But if this was their starting mark, how would it be like further down the road? Would they fizzle out as quickly as they had ignited? Or was this just the tip of the iceberg?
"You better be where I'm headed, Natalia," Olivia had said in her voice message. "Because I'm so not ready for a life without you in it."
"I love that you want to protect me and Emma," Olivia said haltingly, bringing Natalia back to the present with her voice. "But we're in this together, Natalia. It's not okay for you to make the decision to take yourself out of the equation, even if it's with the best intentions."
Natalia closed her eyes when Olivia stroked her cheek with the back of her fingers.
"I need you to know how important you are to me, Natalia," Olivia said seriously, and Natalia opened her eyes. "I need you to know and remember how important you are to me." Natalia felt tears welling up in her eyes and hurriedly brushed a hand across them before blowing out a shaky breath. "I need you to know, remember, and never forget just how important you are to me." Olivia gently wiped the moisture on Natalia's cheek off with her thumb and peered at her. "Can you do that for me?"
Natalia nodded mutely and quickly closed the distance between Olivia's lips and her own. All choked up with emotions, Natalia wasn't sure she could speak. But she could at least show Olivia what she felt.
The kiss was a damp one. At one point, Natalia tried to pull away to dry her tears but Olivia pushed forward, unwilling to break their connection. Natalia buried her hands in Olivia's hair as she rolled onto her back. It was intoxicating to be loved by Olivia, to be loved by someone who saw her for who she was and loved her because of it. She sucked in a shaky breath when the kiss broke, then lifted a hand to push Olivia's hair behind her ear while Olivia dried her tears.
For the first time in a long time, Natalia felt that she deserved a shot at something wonderful. And Olivia... Olivia was that something wonderful.
TBC
Author: xenalvr
Fandom: Guiding Light
Pairing: Olivia/Natalia
Rating: NC-17
Warnings and Disclaimer: CBS, P&G, Telenext et. al. own these characters, not me.
This story is set in an alternate universe, where Natalia Rivera's history and timeline are greatly altered. Most of Olivia Spencer's history remain intact. It contains adult themes and language, and deals with the sex industry, which might not be to everyone's taste, so please do NOT proceed if you are not of age or if any of that might offend you.
I've decided not to worry too much about pre-Otalia plotline discrepancy as this is an AU after all.
*
Natalia awoke with a jerk. Scattered images of her dream left her breathing raggedly. Her heart hammered in her chest as she gasped silently with a hand around the base of her throat, conscious of Olivia sleeping next to her, faced away from her.
When both her heart and breathing calmed down, Natalia gently placed her palm against Olivia's back to ascertain that Olivia was both alive and really there. She scooted closer to Olivia, drawn by the warmth that Olivia emanated like a moth to the flame. Pressing the length of her body against Olivia's back, Natalia closed her eyes briefly as she inhaled the familiar scent of Olivia's hair and skin. Then she curved her arm and lightly cupped Olivia's rounded shoulder as she buried her face in Olivia's hair and exposed nape.
She felt Olivia shift in her sleep, unconsciously searching out her hand to pull around herself and to her lips. Natalia smiled in the dark, thankful to be where she was, relatively unscathed from her confrontation with Mallet. Things could have turned out so very differently. She shuddered at the memory of Mallet's gun pointing at Olivia, of Mallet's strong grip on her, of Mallet heading towards Olivia with ill-intent.
"Natalia?"
Surprised by Olivia's sleep-rusted voice, Natalia took a moment before she responded. "Hm?" She placed a kiss on Olivia's shoulder.
"You're thinking." It wasn't a question. Natalia frowned as Olivia turned to face her.
"I... how did you know?" Natalia asked in a soft whisper, as though anything louder than that would shatter the peace around them. Her lips curved up slightly in a faint smile when she was met with gray-hued features of the woman she loved. She lifted a hand to push errant hairs out of Olivia's face before trailing her fingers down Olivia's cheek and neck, fascinated by the smooth texture under her fingertips. Olivia shrugged sleepily and breathed out a soft whimper at her touch, causing her smile to deepen and her chest to expand.
They hadn't spoken about what had happened; in fact, they hadn't spoken much at all since they left her old apartment. The silence had been good. It had allowed Natalia to come to terms with what had happened, and to think about what laid ahead.
She had finished her shower long before Olivia had finished her bath--during which, she had listened to a voice message that Olivia had left her earlier that day. Now, in the hazy place between slumber and full wakefulness, in the pre-dawn darkness, she was reminded of it again.
"Can hear you thinking..." Olivia mumbled as she cracked open an eye. She stifled a yawn and rubbed at her eyes.
Natalia quirked another smile at that. "Sorry," she breathed out. "I'll try to be quieter."
"Tell me what you thinkin'," Olivia said, pulling Natalia closer and pushing her face against the crook of Natalia's neck. Natalia gasped softly when she felt sharp teeth scraping across her pulse point.
"I was just thinking about what you said," Natalia murmured, shifting to give Olivia more access to her neck. In the short moment that Olivia stopped her ministrations to think, Natalia could feel her frown.
"Oh. To Mallet?" Olivia asked before she resumed nuzzling Natalia's neck, making her squirm and sigh.
"No..." Natalia said breathlessly as her eyes fluttered shut. One of Olivia's hands snuck under her robe and its slow, purposeful trek caused her skin to blush and tingle. She let out a moan and, upon hearing herself, blinked and choked out, "God, Olivia... I can't think when you... do that..."
"Sorry," Olivia murmured, not sounding apologetic at all. But she ceased her movements, and Natalia wasn't sure how she felt about that.
"The voice message that you left me, on my cell," Natalia said finally when she found her thoughts again. She opened her eyes just in time to see Olivia open hers.
"Yeah, what about it?" Olivia asked, running her eyes up and down Natalia's face before she smiled faintly. "You're so beautiful."
Natalia flushed at the unexpected compliment, then shrugged. "Nothing. You asked what I was thinking about. I was thinking about that." Then she brought up a hand and rested it at the base of Olivia's jaw. "I'm sorry I worried you. I'm sorry I took your car. But..." she said, trailing off.
"But... you'd do it again?" Olivia prompted, her brows furrowing.
Natalia took a breath as she looked for the words to express herself. "I'm not sorry that I did what I did," she said finally, tearing her eyes away from Olivia's face and focussing her attention on Olivia's throat. She fiddled with the collar of Olivia's robe absently. "I'd never forgive myself if he'd hurt you or Emma." Then she lifted her eyes to Olivia's again. "I... I'm not prepared for a life without you in it either," she said in a hoarse whisper, a little horrified at the sudden surge of emotion in her chest. She took a shaky breath and wiped at an invisible tear.
Nothing about their relationship was conventional: not the way that they had met, gotten to know each other, fallen in love. So it wasn't surprising at all for Natalia to find herself feeling this much for Olivia at such an early stage of their relationship. They had been through a lot and had been there for each other in the short time that they had known each other. But if this was their starting mark, how would it be like further down the road? Would they fizzle out as quickly as they had ignited? Or was this just the tip of the iceberg?
"You better be where I'm headed, Natalia," Olivia had said in her voice message. "Because I'm so not ready for a life without you in it."
"I love that you want to protect me and Emma," Olivia said haltingly, bringing Natalia back to the present with her voice. "But we're in this together, Natalia. It's not okay for you to make the decision to take yourself out of the equation, even if it's with the best intentions."
Natalia closed her eyes when Olivia stroked her cheek with the back of her fingers.
"I need you to know how important you are to me, Natalia," Olivia said seriously, and Natalia opened her eyes. "I need you to know and remember how important you are to me." Natalia felt tears welling up in her eyes and hurriedly brushed a hand across them before blowing out a shaky breath. "I need you to know, remember, and never forget just how important you are to me." Olivia gently wiped the moisture on Natalia's cheek off with her thumb and peered at her. "Can you do that for me?"
Natalia nodded mutely and quickly closed the distance between Olivia's lips and her own. All choked up with emotions, Natalia wasn't sure she could speak. But she could at least show Olivia what she felt.
The kiss was a damp one. At one point, Natalia tried to pull away to dry her tears but Olivia pushed forward, unwilling to break their connection. Natalia buried her hands in Olivia's hair as she rolled onto her back. It was intoxicating to be loved by Olivia, to be loved by someone who saw her for who she was and loved her because of it. She sucked in a shaky breath when the kiss broke, then lifted a hand to push Olivia's hair behind her ear while Olivia dried her tears.
For the first time in a long time, Natalia felt that she deserved a shot at something wonderful. And Olivia... Olivia was that something wonderful.
TBC