Shadows of the Past

[xena_warrior]

Solan laid on the bed in darkness, trying to fall asleep. But excitation because of the day which has been spend with family was too bright, and he could not relax, continuing to reflect about events that happened today. The toys presented to him, conversations with mum and her husband

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[xena_warrior]

I doubt, that my dark past will make your own burden more easy...
Bites a lip, looking to him in eyes some time
All right. Borias was my ally during our campaign on the East. Though we were lovers, I always tried to think of him only as about the ally and the partner. Caesar taught me to separate feelings from reason very well. At least, I thought so then. I believe, we had the successful union.He had numerous army, I had a plan of action and a lot of impudence. I have intentionally seduced him and withdrawn him from the family to realize my plans. With my broken legs I hardly have managed to conquer all these lands alone. Certainly, I never allowed Borias to realize this fact. He was very dangerous man and for certain would take advantage of my weak spot. However, I think, he was clever enough to guess it himself. Borias was ambitious, as well as I, that is why we continued to battle together, even when we have ceased to pretend, that we are madly in love in each other.
She grinned cynically
I think, we have dumped our masks a month later after the beginning of our campaign...

[_call_me_snake_]

Snake smiled listening very carefully to what she said. There is one thing that sharing our past will do. It can help us understand each other, why we do crazy shit sometimes.

I've always told you, I want to know you and I mean that. I hope you want to know who I really am too.

[xena_warrior]

I do not understand till now why we were such lucky, in fact we were awful allies who constantly quarreled with each other and never turned a back to each other though slept in one bed. Can you imagine it? We were cranky ruthless murderers crazy on sex. We lived, as animals... only by instincts.
She shook head, recollecting that time.
I hope, that my son never learns the all truth.He knows, that his father was not the noble hero from fairy tales, but I would not want, that he has heard about those terrible things which we did then.
I really do not want to recollect it.
She looked at Snake.
Though I never had illusions for Borias, he has managed to catch me in Chin. After next our disagreement this bastard has given me to the Chinese imperor, as a payment for their future union in war. I thought, that I hate Caesar... But it did not go in any comparison with that hatred which I felt to Borias after his betrayal.
Nevertheless, we have renewed our union after I left Lao Ma. Yeah, people can be so crazy stupid creatures sometimes...
Borias changed my life... pulled me out from that chasm which I slid in. Alas, I have understood it too late.
She sighed and was silent some time.
So who are really you? Your turn now!

[_call_me_snake_]

I can understand why that's so hard for you to talk about.

Snake sighed.

I was raised to be a man of respect, maybe I am. I fought for my country like no other, became a hero and role model for children. People wanted to be me. Then the government sent us to Leningrad. I lost everyone I knew, my whole squadron except for Taylor died. The woman I was going to ask to marry me died that day. I had the ring in my pocket on that mission and was going to ask her as soon as we landed.

I lost my eye trying to save her life. I wanted to stay and die with her but Taylor talked me out of it. He was badly injured and so was I when we got back, month passed before we could go home. When I did my parents had been murdered because I had lived, Taylor's too.

I lost my mind that night and blew up a whole group of military vehicles. I had to do something or lose my mind from the pain of knowing what I had been learned to fight and give my life for had taken everything I cared about from me.

They said I was crazy after that, I feel like I was. Then they took me into the asylum to help me with the pain and anger. When I got there they told me Leningrad and the whole war was a figment of my imagination. Told me Sophia was some woman I made up in my head. By the time they let me out I was completely out of my mind.

I completely turned on the government and everyone. I looked after Taylor with his leg and started my life as a criminal. I gave up who I was, destroyed every record of that man I used to be.

The government got worse and I retaliated. It escalated until a year before I met you. Taylor and I robbed a bank out west. We were set up and they murdered him. We had given up and they shot him hundred of times, left his body to rot and took me off to New York. I can't remember if I ever told you about the New York prison.

[xena_warrior]

Xena shook a head, having smiled weakly
No, you mentioned it some times, but we never talked about prison in details. I saw it when visited you the last year, but, I believe, I have not learned even a tenth part of truth about this place.

[_call_me_snake_]

That wasn't the prison.

Back home, the island of Manhattan, where my shop is, is walled off into a prison. They took me there intent on throwing me over it and forgetting about me. Guess I was lucky. The president's plane crashed inside the prison at the same time I arrived.

Cops got the idea to use me to get him out. They lied to me, injected me with explosives and threw me inside. The place is full of criminals and hordes of crazies. Everyone there's been overexposed to teh gas.

[xena_warrior]

Xena listened to him closely, having recollected other prison on island where she was one time, serving time for the crimes accomplished in the past.
The world which Snake described, his own world, looked as very gloomy and dangerous place.
Is this prison still exists? - she has asked

[_call_me_snake_]

In my own world it does. They've made another one on the west coast too since I left.

[xena_warrior]

She sighed, having touched his palm.
Really nobody battles against this madness? I know, that people are easy for intimidating, but it is sad to see, how they turn to pity meek cattle because of crazy government.

[_call_me_snake_]

After some of the things they've done, murdering people, the gas and all the poisons. You follow or you die. Very few people stand up against those kind of odds.

[xena_warrior]

Nods
Such things... more precisely, something similar happened at us too. But I think, the bright example is necessary for people... Any proof, that it is possible to destroy this system. It could encourage them. Even one successful opposition.

[_call_me_snake_]

Not back home. One person opposes in a city and the government is likely to round up the whole city and kill everyone. Makes for a lot of people turning on you.

[xena_warrior]

It would not be desirable to think, that your situation is so hopeless.
sighs

[_call_me_snake_]

I try not to think like that but I also can't ignore the facts.

[xena_warrior]

Xena sighed and put a hand on his shoulder.
Nevertheless, there is always the way to cope with any situation, even the most hopeless. We just should notice it in time.
In such situations I always speak myself, that tomorrow is a new day.
With these words Xena gone to a stairs intending to be aired on a porch a little bit...

[_call_me_snake_]

Snake smiled letting her go. If I didn't believe that I would have never tried to have the family I always wanted.

Snake kissed her cheek and let her go. He could tell she needed time alone.