i shouldn't be here.
I wouldn't do this, I wouldn't if I wasn't addicted. And I thought these feelings were over. One phone call can cause a relapse. I could never be gorgeous and I could never compete with all the beauty he surrounds himself with. I left early to see him and tell him my selfish reasons why water was falling down my face. He doesn't know what to do and I don't know what to tell him. I can't even choke out any words as he's walking away, but I heard the door close and I watched him drive away...and I'll always feel like this is all my fault.