i turn my back on my faith. its like glass when we break. i wish no one in my place.
what do you do when those few select things that you have always known about life turn out to be wrong. i mean we all make mistakes, read people wrong and do things that are just down right stupid. but we learn from these mistakes and we take our falls. what pulls us through are those few things you know you can always count on. my question is, what happens when you fall and you are in this pit of dispair and reach for those few things, and find out that they just arent real. i have built this dillusion i my head that everything always has to work out. i have come to see that sometimes things just dont work out, and yet i am still searching for answers? i dont even make sense. i have put myself in this neat little niave box were things happen, but everything happens for a reason. what happens when you cant find the reason. what do you do when your world shatters? i am so lost i am so confused i am so tired and i cant stop. what am i supposed to do? what am i supposed to do? how do i make this better? how? please someone, anyone?