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i feel..
like the lowest piece of shit.
i dont know....
it seems like i'm not doing anything right anymore.
i do things.. that i dont mean to do. and its like i cant stop myself.. its no secret i hate her friends... i just wish i could pretend i didnt.
i honestly feel like giving up.. like i cant try any more. i love her to death. more than anything. she means more to me than the world. shes the most important person in my life. i'd do anything for her. i'd die. anything. and sometimes it seems like she just doesnt understand. its not that i dont want her to have friends.. its just for some reason the thought of her out and stuff tears me up so bad inside.. whenever shes out i sit. and i cry. for hours. and i cant stop my self no matter how hard i try. i swear it seems like the slightest thing bothers me. and i'm afraid that sometimes i care too much. i take things too personal and i cry a lot more than i should. but the fact is. I love this girl. this girl is the one. i know shes the one i want to marry. shes the one i want to share everything with. i've never been so sure or so in love. and its because of that that i dont trust people around her and i would die if i lost her.
i'm sorry.
i love you bre.
more than you'll ever know.
like the lowest piece of shit.
i dont know....
it seems like i'm not doing anything right anymore.
i do things.. that i dont mean to do. and its like i cant stop myself.. its no secret i hate her friends... i just wish i could pretend i didnt.
i honestly feel like giving up.. like i cant try any more. i love her to death. more than anything. she means more to me than the world. shes the most important person in my life. i'd do anything for her. i'd die. anything. and sometimes it seems like she just doesnt understand. its not that i dont want her to have friends.. its just for some reason the thought of her out and stuff tears me up so bad inside.. whenever shes out i sit. and i cry. for hours. and i cant stop my self no matter how hard i try. i swear it seems like the slightest thing bothers me. and i'm afraid that sometimes i care too much. i take things too personal and i cry a lot more than i should. but the fact is. I love this girl. this girl is the one. i know shes the one i want to marry. shes the one i want to share everything with. i've never been so sure or so in love. and its because of that that i dont trust people around her and i would die if i lost her.
i'm sorry.
i love you bre.
more than you'll ever know.