*gone*
their both gone.. both of em.. one has a g/f so i hear and the other is most likely gonna go out w/ one of my friends.. wtf i cant fuckin stand this.. everyone has a fuckin boyfriend or girlfriend.. i hate this.. i jsut seriously want someone 2 hold me in their arms and say everything is going to be okay.. but everythings NOT gonna be okay until im in that person's arms.. so i guess that means im NEVER gonna be okay.. guys suck.. i hate em.. just they are such backstabbers and just err.. the boy that ive wanted and always will want obviously doesnt want me and just im not gonna go through this again w/ him.. but he jsut didnt notice me.. well he noticed me but just he didnt notice ME.. the real me.. the real me where i actually express my feelings towards people and just let everything out.. he didnt see ME.. he noticed the materialistic me.. the me that worries about her clothes and her hair and makeup and "looks good" but just didnt notice the me inside. but i didnt give him a chance to.. i just dont know what to do anymore.. the other one is just way outta my league.. ill never have him and i know it for a fact.. so whats the point in trying for him.. im just gonna forget about him totally.. theres no one out there for me.. all i want is for someone to be there for me to run to when i need help.. when i need someone to be there for me.. i just need someone to love me.. like i love them... but i guess its just never gonna be...