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In my dreams
I see myself hitting a baseball
In a green field somewhere near a freeway
I'm all tan and smiling and running from 3rd base
And it's hot and
The kids keep on playing the driving game
And they're singing the same goddamn refrain
And the sky is a blueish grey.
And its become just like a chemical stress
Tracing the lines in my face for
Something more beautiful than is there
I've barely been gone.
In my dreams
I see you at the foot of some mountains.
And we're taking some pictures or something
And we'd better hurry up
And it's late and
The sun keeps on shooting through pine trees
And the grass stains are wet on your new jeans
And we'd better hurry up
And I've become just like a terrible mess
searching the lines in my face for
something more beautiful than is there
the crowds keep me coming back. Cheering.
In my dreams
I see you asleep on a twin bed
The covers pulled up over your head
Am I asleep or awake?
And it's morning
And the captain is playing the radio
And hes just put the paint on his new boat
Am I asleep or awake?
And it just feels good when you're waking up
And it just feels good when you're next to me
And it just feels good when you're coming home
And it just feels good when you're waking up
And I've become just like a chemical stress
Tracing the lines of my face for
Something more beautiful than is there
I've barely been gone
and I'm not a failure
I swear
I wish you could see it from over there
I've got a lot over here without you
I've barely been gone
gone
dreaming
god i fucking love Rilo Kiley, they are just so amazing and I want to be surround by them and listen to them for hours and never stop and uhh there's just not enough time but I need them!! they are so Beautiful the lyrics and his voice and his omg I want to marry them... ya ok I'm done...
I don't know what to say I mean I feel like typing but I have nothing to type... I learned alot about Eli today that I didn't know... and about Danielle I love her she's awesome, we get along with each other and I love how she listens to my lamo storys and all and I lover her storys, It's awesome how she's 19 and I'm 16 but she treats me as an equal and I love that.
My brother is in a pissy mood about something and I'm not sure what he's not talking and he left then I left but when I got home he looked like he was about to cry and he didn't say anything to me except something about closing the door behind me I don't know. I hate that, I don't know if I did something or not. It might be about my grades but they're my grades not his.
I hate November FUCKING HATE IT I hate everything about it... My "dark day" is in november and I'm always depressed, this year I think is going to be worse because I no longer have Tyler in my life he's gone, I went to say hi to him yesterday he said not more then 10 words to me and most of them were about Trevor and Kristy being there, I sent him an e-mail saying I needed him just for a day to talk to and get away and he said nothing to me about it or even a response I hate it I wish he'd just leave, it's killing me to know he's next door but not for me not at all.. I need someone and what i'm I to do with out him. My parents yelled at me for my grades and all I wanted to do was run off and talk to him but I know he wouldn't listen and he wouldn't be there for me, he promised me and now he's doing this... it hurts and I HATE HIM FOR THIS
I love Drew and Alex and Danielle and Alex P. And everyone who loves me and lets me hang out with them for hours and hours and Drew for driving me places and the mall and hastings and the knitting book and my new rilo kiley cd and random conversations and Subway!! yumm! I think I'm going to start living off of vegi-delight sandwiches yum yum
what else?? umm here another song!! I love this one too!! I think it matches pretty well with the way i'm feeling
I had one friend in high school recently he hung himself with string
His note said
"If livin' is the problem, well that's just baffling."
And at the wake I waited around to see my ex first love
And I barely recognized her, but I knew exactly what she was thinking of
We sat quietly in the corner whispering close about loss
And I remembered why I loved her, and I asked her why I drove her off
She said
The slow fade of love
Its soft edge might cut you
And our poor friend, Jim
Well he just lived within
The slow fade of love
A woman calls my house once a week; she's always selling things
Some charity, a phone plan, a subscription to a magazine
And as I turned her down, I always do, there was something trembling in her voice
I said
Hey, what troubles you?
She said
I'm surprised you noticed
Well, my husband, he's leaving, and I can't convince him to stay
And he'll take our daughter with him, she wants to go with him anyway
I'm sorry I'm hard to live with, living is the problem for me
I'm selling people things they don't want when I don't know what you need
He said the slow fade of love
And its mist might choke you
It's my gradual descent
Into a life I never meant
It's the slow fade of love
I was driving south of Melrose; I happened upon my old lover's old house
I found myself staring at the closed up door like the day she threw me out
"Dianna, Dianna, Dianna I would die for you
I'm in love with you completely, I'm afraid that's all I can do"
She said
"You can sleep upon my doorstep, you can promise me indifference, Jim
But my mind is made up, and I'll never let you in again"
For the slow fade of love
It might hit you from below
It's your gradual descent
Into a life you never meant
It's the slow fade of love
I see myself hitting a baseball
In a green field somewhere near a freeway
I'm all tan and smiling and running from 3rd base
And it's hot and
The kids keep on playing the driving game
And they're singing the same goddamn refrain
And the sky is a blueish grey.
And its become just like a chemical stress
Tracing the lines in my face for
Something more beautiful than is there
I've barely been gone.
In my dreams
I see you at the foot of some mountains.
And we're taking some pictures or something
And we'd better hurry up
And it's late and
The sun keeps on shooting through pine trees
And the grass stains are wet on your new jeans
And we'd better hurry up
And I've become just like a terrible mess
searching the lines in my face for
something more beautiful than is there
the crowds keep me coming back. Cheering.
In my dreams
I see you asleep on a twin bed
The covers pulled up over your head
Am I asleep or awake?
And it's morning
And the captain is playing the radio
And hes just put the paint on his new boat
Am I asleep or awake?
And it just feels good when you're waking up
And it just feels good when you're next to me
And it just feels good when you're coming home
And it just feels good when you're waking up
And I've become just like a chemical stress
Tracing the lines of my face for
Something more beautiful than is there
I've barely been gone
and I'm not a failure
I swear
I wish you could see it from over there
I've got a lot over here without you
I've barely been gone
gone
dreaming
god i fucking love Rilo Kiley, they are just so amazing and I want to be surround by them and listen to them for hours and never stop and uhh there's just not enough time but I need them!! they are so Beautiful the lyrics and his voice and his omg I want to marry them... ya ok I'm done...
I don't know what to say I mean I feel like typing but I have nothing to type... I learned alot about Eli today that I didn't know... and about Danielle I love her she's awesome, we get along with each other and I love how she listens to my lamo storys and all and I lover her storys, It's awesome how she's 19 and I'm 16 but she treats me as an equal and I love that.
My brother is in a pissy mood about something and I'm not sure what he's not talking and he left then I left but when I got home he looked like he was about to cry and he didn't say anything to me except something about closing the door behind me I don't know. I hate that, I don't know if I did something or not. It might be about my grades but they're my grades not his.
I hate November FUCKING HATE IT I hate everything about it... My "dark day" is in november and I'm always depressed, this year I think is going to be worse because I no longer have Tyler in my life he's gone, I went to say hi to him yesterday he said not more then 10 words to me and most of them were about Trevor and Kristy being there, I sent him an e-mail saying I needed him just for a day to talk to and get away and he said nothing to me about it or even a response I hate it I wish he'd just leave, it's killing me to know he's next door but not for me not at all.. I need someone and what i'm I to do with out him. My parents yelled at me for my grades and all I wanted to do was run off and talk to him but I know he wouldn't listen and he wouldn't be there for me, he promised me and now he's doing this... it hurts and I HATE HIM FOR THIS
I love Drew and Alex and Danielle and Alex P. And everyone who loves me and lets me hang out with them for hours and hours and Drew for driving me places and the mall and hastings and the knitting book and my new rilo kiley cd and random conversations and Subway!! yumm! I think I'm going to start living off of vegi-delight sandwiches yum yum
what else?? umm here another song!! I love this one too!! I think it matches pretty well with the way i'm feeling
I had one friend in high school recently he hung himself with string
His note said
"If livin' is the problem, well that's just baffling."
And at the wake I waited around to see my ex first love
And I barely recognized her, but I knew exactly what she was thinking of
We sat quietly in the corner whispering close about loss
And I remembered why I loved her, and I asked her why I drove her off
She said
The slow fade of love
Its soft edge might cut you
And our poor friend, Jim
Well he just lived within
The slow fade of love
A woman calls my house once a week; she's always selling things
Some charity, a phone plan, a subscription to a magazine
And as I turned her down, I always do, there was something trembling in her voice
I said
Hey, what troubles you?
She said
I'm surprised you noticed
Well, my husband, he's leaving, and I can't convince him to stay
And he'll take our daughter with him, she wants to go with him anyway
I'm sorry I'm hard to live with, living is the problem for me
I'm selling people things they don't want when I don't know what you need
He said the slow fade of love
And its mist might choke you
It's my gradual descent
Into a life I never meant
It's the slow fade of love
I was driving south of Melrose; I happened upon my old lover's old house
I found myself staring at the closed up door like the day she threw me out
"Dianna, Dianna, Dianna I would die for you
I'm in love with you completely, I'm afraid that's all I can do"
She said
"You can sleep upon my doorstep, you can promise me indifference, Jim
But my mind is made up, and I'll never let you in again"
For the slow fade of love
It might hit you from below
It's your gradual descent
Into a life you never meant
It's the slow fade of love