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i guess it didnt really hit me until today...i mean i think about it alot..but not as much as right now...i have no friends...i feel like people think i stoped hanging out with them because i was with fester..but once school started i was really busy with class and 3 jobs.
seriously though...even just a few months ago i would log onto aim and have at least a few conversations going. not i log onto aim and no one talks. honestly i think i only talk to 2 people.
everyone is always saying to call them and i say the same shit, but i usually text people or something. ill admit i spend most of my time with fester..but its rediculous that i get upset and basically lock myself in my room when he tells me he cant hang out.
im probably sounding dumb now and if people actually read this there probably thinking well she never calls me so idk what shes talking about. im sorry if i dont call all of you..but there are people who tell me they are ganna hang out with me but they never do.
as much as i hated high school, i want to go back, just for my friends. i want to be able to see them in school and talk to them about shit, and laugh at the stupid assholes. what i want more, is the summer nights where at 10pm we would all be in the corner of mcdonalds just laughing until they kicked us out and then we ended up in the village. those were the good times.
nothing is good now..everything is boring. almost all the people i knew are doing drugs everynight or getting drunk. i dont do that shit. i work my ass off and still make a shitty pay check. i dont go out..ive probably gained 20 lbs which is not good...im not motivated to go to the gym which isnt good either.
basically...im just rambling because im pissed and bored
seriously though...even just a few months ago i would log onto aim and have at least a few conversations going. not i log onto aim and no one talks. honestly i think i only talk to 2 people.
everyone is always saying to call them and i say the same shit, but i usually text people or something. ill admit i spend most of my time with fester..but its rediculous that i get upset and basically lock myself in my room when he tells me he cant hang out.
im probably sounding dumb now and if people actually read this there probably thinking well she never calls me so idk what shes talking about. im sorry if i dont call all of you..but there are people who tell me they are ganna hang out with me but they never do.
as much as i hated high school, i want to go back, just for my friends. i want to be able to see them in school and talk to them about shit, and laugh at the stupid assholes. what i want more, is the summer nights where at 10pm we would all be in the corner of mcdonalds just laughing until they kicked us out and then we ended up in the village. those were the good times.
nothing is good now..everything is boring. almost all the people i knew are doing drugs everynight or getting drunk. i dont do that shit. i work my ass off and still make a shitty pay check. i dont go out..ive probably gained 20 lbs which is not good...im not motivated to go to the gym which isnt good either.
basically...im just rambling because im pissed and bored