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urgh, my life is so fucked up
i just wish people would fill me in every now and agin, so that everything didnt have to be such a big deal, if i knew where i stood then i wouldnt be feeling like this. i cant handle people always being so hot and cold, dont make me think one thing and then turn round and make me think the complete opposite. or was it all just me making things bigger then they actually were cuz i wanted to? i was like fucking planning ahead and everything urgh im such a tit. its not like he didnt have the chance to tell me, i phoned him for fucks sake, just drop it into conversation, its not fucking hard.
anyhoo, enough of that. saw some people in the joyous town of worcester, twas interesting. some old friends were nice to me which i enjoyed, others just confused me but hey, im generally confused about matters to do with those kinds of people. you know what i mean, those kinds of people.
i love donna and lora, theyre fun to hang with, were on the same wavelength...generally at least. they wouldnt leave me if i wasnt 'scene' enough, and they wouldnt phone me just to make a point about where they were cuz theyre not that bitter or self obsessed. god get me, goin pretty deep tonight.
nah, this must read like im so pissed off but im rlly not, im kinda half pissed off about a number of things, half dont give a shit about a number of things, and half pleased by tonights festivities. some times things are just too messed up to think about, and they get more messed up the more u think about them, or is that just me that gets messed up? who knows
better go back to being happy and fun and what not. new season is not working out well for me, damn my fine plans.
in conlcusion: tonight was fun