Lost
OMG. I have lost myself. I don't know who I am anymore. I look in the mirror and can't even recognize myself. I have never been this far away. What is one supposed to do when they don't know who they are anymore. I have no motivation for anything. I can't even cry anymore really. I need to find myself again but I don't know where to start. I just sat down and evaluated my life. Everything. Health, family, friends and I feel sick. I am disgusted with myself. How could I have let things get so bad. Neglected myself so long that I am almost at the ability I cannot cry anymore. All that seems to be left these days is the anger and this numb empty feeling. I'm kind of scared. I didn't know how bad things were until today. I kinda got a wake up call. I wont go into detail but someone important to me is in the hospital. Her being there has opened my eyes to how valuable and fleeting life really is. I shut myself away from others because I am ashamed of the person I am becoming. I need to do something before it gets worse. I think I need to start writing more.