Smashed to Pieces

[xemeraldcityx]

This lie grows and continues
to manifest itself into a 5 AM web
of marked beauty and false hope
This taint smells of death
The one that can kill quickly
or perhaps silently in the night

I look to the stars
Hoping one falls upon my feet
I stare at the birds
longing for them to share my song
I lose myself in the sun
hoping it's warmth will cure the cold
Alas nothing answers. Just the void.

Be careful of the pictures
And the memories you paint
They haunt and eat at your soul
A perfect day can become the worst
because of one mistake
Where is my rescue squad?
It will not come. I am alone.

I danced to this song
lifted my arms to the ceiling
pretending it was sky
endless beautiful sky
obsessing with life
and all the beauty
is my number one danger

Maybe someone is listening
Will all my dreams turn to gravestones?
Are we all running in circles?
Is this a nightmare that never ends?
Changing the course of my history
is a vanity long sought after

I pray...to whom I do not know
for what I am unsure
Lie myself to sleep
so that I may dream
of the day when I may walk
into sunlight unscathed.