Im lost, word....
I dunno man, that's my answer to everything right now.. I dunno about Kris, shit just hurts man. I dunno about me anymore, i dunno what im doing.. I dunno about anything right now man. It seems like 3 weeks ago i was totally different, i was a elite athlete competing in one of the world's largest kickboxing tournaments doing what i love and i got second.. Almost first but man it got taken from me.. And since then i've been falling for Kris, drugs, and just living some u can say. Shit's been full of many ups and downs, more downs i think.. The thing with Kris is like.... I dunno lol.... Dude i just wanna chill, i want to feel like she wants to have something to do with me, fuck man ANYTHING.. Goddamn, it just feels like if i don't txt her and message her on aim or myspace then she wont bother to see whats up with me and just forget about me. I dont wanna fucking be like all the other guys to her, i want her to see me different, cuz i fucking am.. Hah. Andddddddddddd dude i've just been mad depressed everyday, laying around thinking about all this shit and just feeling like such a loser yo, i mean at one point i txted 4 people at once and i didn't get a answer for almost an hour or so. I'm just depressed man i dunno.. Depressed about not wanting to train hard right now, cuz i dunno who i am anymore it seems, i'm so used to having to train my ass off and not have time and now that i'm not and have mad chill time i'm just lost, i'm starting to live life more and i dunno it's weird.. I wish things were lil different. I'm just lost. Thinking alot on this shit with Kris, and just really bummed out about it.. I dont wanna be anyone's tool.
Ugh...... And today isssssssssssssssss... Lameeee. Kris is out hanging with her friends, and her ex b/f 2 days in a row possibly.. And i dunno man, there's no point in thinking to much about cuz man i can't do anything about it.. Still doesn't mean that it's not on my mind. I feel like a annoyance to her, and how she really just doesn't have me on her mind at all so therefor it must be the reason to why she doesn't seem to care... Anddddddddddd goddamnit lmao i'm such a... Dreamer? Word.. I need to get the fuck out of the house, just went to dennys with bro haha shit was nastyyyyyyyyyyy.. And now i'm stuck home again with olympics on again. I just need to get out of here, no one is txting me back or calling me, no one wants me. I'm just ganna hop in my car and see what happens... I'm just lost now cyberspaceeeeee.
Ugh...... And today isssssssssssssssss... Lameeee. Kris is out hanging with her friends, and her ex b/f 2 days in a row possibly.. And i dunno man, there's no point in thinking to much about cuz man i can't do anything about it.. Still doesn't mean that it's not on my mind. I feel like a annoyance to her, and how she really just doesn't have me on her mind at all so therefor it must be the reason to why she doesn't seem to care... Anddddddddddd goddamnit lmao i'm such a... Dreamer? Word.. I need to get the fuck out of the house, just went to dennys with bro haha shit was nastyyyyyyyyyyy.. And now i'm stuck home again with olympics on again. I just need to get out of here, no one is txting me back or calling me, no one wants me. I'm just ganna hop in my car and see what happens... I'm just lost now cyberspaceeeeee.