Blehhh
I have a headache from getting home so late and i feel fat for eating so much o_o
I still don't understand Kris. And i still don't know if she if she likes me or not.
And umm, i still feel weird about life. A part of me wants to start training hard again and get sick and of course start competing again and be the best in the world. And this other part that has come out due to liking Kris and maybe some drug influences lol is like me just NOT caring about anything, i just feel like chillen and getting high and doing whatever else. It's bad. I dunno why i feel so.. numb. I dunno, it's weird, i was so motivated before now i feel like i'm just wasting my talent and that what i have accomplished just a couple of weeks ago is slipping away from my fingertips, and... i dunno man i need something to change right now, something needs to just totally make me realize what the fuck is going on with me.
I still don't understand Kris. And i still don't know if she if she likes me or not.
And umm, i still feel weird about life. A part of me wants to start training hard again and get sick and of course start competing again and be the best in the world. And this other part that has come out due to liking Kris and maybe some drug influences lol is like me just NOT caring about anything, i just feel like chillen and getting high and doing whatever else. It's bad. I dunno why i feel so.. numb. I dunno, it's weird, i was so motivated before now i feel like i'm just wasting my talent and that what i have accomplished just a couple of weeks ago is slipping away from my fingertips, and... i dunno man i need something to change right now, something needs to just totally make me realize what the fuck is going on with me.