my private life
amazement..
just 1 word...just 1 word that includes so many mixed feelings...
so many churned gut achings that urge me so many ways...
what is it that i'm afraid to show..? what is it that i'm afraid to hide?
it seems that the more time goes on the more secrets my soul keeps..
and not even i can seem to figuere out all that's there...
so what am i keeping from myself?
i guess the hardest part of life is figuering yourself out...
so then why do we insist on trying to understand someone else.?
sometimes we feel there's emptyness inside us...
and though we seldom ever feel it full .....
we still won't take in anything else if we're empty...
we don't realize what we push away to keep something else close...
and then again i feel amazement but this time for what i do...
but like all great men in the world the truth is suffering is in our mind..
and we only hurt with what we let get to us...
but it's not that simple...we call for it... we call for suffering...
as simple as it is none of us seem to be able to choose our thoughts..
choose our cares.. our worries..our ambitions...
but the truth is we do overanalyze and cause our own pain...
but we call for it...
as much as a part of us seems to say "i want simplicity" it's not true..
we all love living simple but another part of us wants to live a movie..
we love drama.. we love pretending we're living in a motion picture...
we all want to be the people other people see and say wow that person is so rich with emotions...
that person is feeling what i wish i could feel..
so we complicate things...why? cause we know it brings about stronger emotions..
but it's not a bad thing...we're human...so we want to feel human...
pain and suffering is a human emotion just as much as love and happiness is..
and our nature calls us to expirience them as much as the other...
so perhaps when we create our own movie lifes..
our own dramas...
we're going about the right way in life...
or maybe we don't know anything else but that...
ok that's that...
what i've written is something i've noticed and believe about life.. however right now i feel bliss.. and although i know i'm gonna expirience pain the thought of it doesn't scare me or upset me..i'm happy right now..and every event i'm gonna go through i consider a beautiful stage of my life... and although i never know when each stage starts and ends each stage is more beautiful than the next...i love life
just 1 word...just 1 word that includes so many mixed feelings...
so many churned gut achings that urge me so many ways...
what is it that i'm afraid to show..? what is it that i'm afraid to hide?
it seems that the more time goes on the more secrets my soul keeps..
and not even i can seem to figuere out all that's there...
so what am i keeping from myself?
i guess the hardest part of life is figuering yourself out...
so then why do we insist on trying to understand someone else.?
sometimes we feel there's emptyness inside us...
and though we seldom ever feel it full .....
we still won't take in anything else if we're empty...
we don't realize what we push away to keep something else close...
and then again i feel amazement but this time for what i do...
but like all great men in the world the truth is suffering is in our mind..
and we only hurt with what we let get to us...
but it's not that simple...we call for it... we call for suffering...
as simple as it is none of us seem to be able to choose our thoughts..
choose our cares.. our worries..our ambitions...
but the truth is we do overanalyze and cause our own pain...
but we call for it...
as much as a part of us seems to say "i want simplicity" it's not true..
we all love living simple but another part of us wants to live a movie..
we love drama.. we love pretending we're living in a motion picture...
we all want to be the people other people see and say wow that person is so rich with emotions...
that person is feeling what i wish i could feel..
so we complicate things...why? cause we know it brings about stronger emotions..
but it's not a bad thing...we're human...so we want to feel human...
pain and suffering is a human emotion just as much as love and happiness is..
and our nature calls us to expirience them as much as the other...
so perhaps when we create our own movie lifes..
our own dramas...
we're going about the right way in life...
or maybe we don't know anything else but that...
ok that's that...
what i've written is something i've noticed and believe about life.. however right now i feel bliss.. and although i know i'm gonna expirience pain the thought of it doesn't scare me or upset me..i'm happy right now..and every event i'm gonna go through i consider a beautiful stage of my life... and although i never know when each stage starts and ends each stage is more beautiful than the next...i love life