...and that train keeps rolling...

[xel_otath]

Four years deep and not a soul to trust. In hindsight, it's pretty fucking absurd to think that I'd have any other expectation from wittingly signing up to be around nothing but budding clinical psychologists for four years. But I have grown in this time as well. Old habits, once endorsed with the rhyme and reason reserved for sacraments, now to

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[hazard_identity]

You're alive! And pulling out some serious vocabulary

[xel_otath]

Thank you. As awesome as it always is to communicate with you on here, I do miss you in the physical presence sense that no manner of technology could ever replace.

[aphrodite_187]

I agree totally with the person who commented before me. I know how you feel. We meet so many people as we grow up and have new experiences, and we're so eager to call them friends, only to find out that A) they could give a shit less about us, or B) the other way around. Adulthood is full of those smiling facades. Le sigh. I think I've given up.

Also, you don't scare me. :) Even with your epic wordiness.

[xel_otath]

Well of course I don't scare you; you were born without fear. Or maybe it's just too much curiosity to act on it. I never quite had that figured out. What I said to hazard above, you already knew I had in my heart for you, but its worth saying anyway. I miss you, Lys. That kind of contrast is precisely the sort of thing that had me bummed here. If our paths didn't cross for the next ten years, I feel like our year eleven meeting wouldn't suffer at all for it. On the other hand, the people I spend most of my time with here I can't be around without feeling awkward, or guarded, or like an unwitting intruder. It gets old. It's a feeling of still having to be somewhere that I know I don't belong at anymore. But on the plus side, it's only a few more months, and those are really easy to lose track of these days anyway.

[aphrodite_187]

Heh, if only it were true that I was fearless. I think I've grown to be afraid of many things nowadays...

I miss you too. It is indeed a testament to our friendship that we can always pick up where we left off, where ever that might have been. When is the last time I saw you anyway? Was it when I lived in Mid City? A lot has changed since then. :/

Months fly by. Use your acquaintances for whatever positive emotions you can get from them, and then move on. Jeez that sounds so cold. But hey, that's what everyone does, really.

[xel_otath]

Mid city sounds right. I think Jessie and I went with you and Raph to the Reginelli's near the park. A lot has changed here too. And I don't think what you said is cold, really. Just adult.

Also, SC II = $60 one time fee with no monthly, for an awesomely mind expanding, self-contained online gaming experience that doesn't base its services on an addiction model and that has no problems with throwing music, setting, and vibe at you that makes you feel like you're in Firefly. I pretty much have no complaints there.