Just tell me it's ok to die...sit back and let her die slowly...you are the song i know
I keep not updating-WHOOPS! lol Rach!
23rd-Wed-Voiceover at 10a didn't even leave until 11.30. How is it that she gets backed up THAT early?! Rarg! Then i had an audition at 3.30. Anad at 7 i went to a belly dancing class with Sam. It was ok. I mean my tummy didn't get an amazing workout but my arms and shoulders were throbbing. Then i went and did some ab shit and a few leg machines. Then for Pizza-Love that! lol
24th-Thurs-Didn't do much. Went to a French din din with Sam-Amazing! I had escargots, filet mignon, and we shared a flourless chocolate cake. NUMMY NUM! lol
25th-Fri-The start of my weekend from hell! WOOT! Had a promo job from 12-6. Laptop died, as usual. Then i got a call about a voiceover. Steph said to be there by 7, so i hauled ass to get there, walked in and she says "you're late." I'm like what the hell do you mean i'm late? I was told 7. She goes i submitted at 5! FUCK FUCK FUCK! She let me audition anyway. I ended up doing 2 that night.
26th-Sat-Crawled out of bed for Yoga. Sam overslept and missed it. Then she was supposed to meet me for coffee, late again. RARG! That's so fucking frustrating. I kept ragging on her about it, just because it's so annoying. We went to Bean and got coffee, then to a pizza place for lunch. I had fettucini alfredo w/ chicken, we shared bruschetta, and garlic bread. Nummy! I took the rest of the bruschetta home with me. Then i get home and there were 2 live bees in my apt! I had been having a bee problem. But they hadn't been seen for a while. So anyway, i went to Rite-Aid and got 2 cans of Raid and sprayed my windows, then took butter to the car with me, where i sat for like 4 hours. Sam told me to go to her house, drop of butter and go to hooters but i wasn't in the mood to go one way and then another. Jeff told me to go to his house, but that would mean spending time with Jeff, and he bugs me after like 30 min. I ended up talking to like everyone and their mother yesterday. Greg (from the band the Boils-go check them out) called while i was at rite-aid and told me that his manager just moved to CA and he was going to be in huntington beach next weekend. So we might hang out. Gina called to ask about clubs, so i had to call Yibby, because i know NOTHING about the Phila clubs. Christian called while i was on the phone, so i called him back. Then when i was checking the smell in my apt Brandon called so i called him. I didn't talk very long to anyone except Rach and that's only because we sat on the phone crying together. We were venting and what not and all of asudden we both break down into tears. It was terrible. I ended up barely sleeping last night because i was soo fucking depressed. ::sigh:: i literally sat in the car and just screamed. I'm surprise i had a voice at the end of the day. I feel like i keep letting everyone and everything down. I think i'm just putting too much pressure on myself, i dunno.
27th-Sun-today-i had work from 12-6 where my laptop died yet again. I met another promo girl-Tress. We swapped #'s in case one of us needs to be bailed out of a job or something.
Tomorrow-Audition at 10a, Homa at 6p. Possible trip to Jiffy Lube in prep for this weekend.
Flash to Thursday-Driving to SF with Sam. Fri-Alcatraz, crookedest street, Golden Gate Park, bridge trip, and overhang view and hopefully seeing Anna, MAYBE a new piercing for Sam!!! lol she might get her first body piercing in SF-Belly button of course! Sat-the Wharf, Cannery, Pier. Sun-Home maybe travel through Caramel, and Monterey-OOOH FUN!!! I hadn't thought of that! lol
OK So a friend update...Rach-Just had a 2 yr anniv with Ray (Congrats chica!!!) which went badly. Amber-Classes and Niko, nothing new! Laura-A new job waitressing i think, and a new sn! lol I think applying or already applied for UC. Gina-Still broken up with Eric, i really thought they'd be back together...SO SORRY! Christian-Still with the boy...i think...no more Nova, too much money for it. Brandon-Total of 3 racing cars right now. Greg-Just dropped a new album! Ali-Wrapping up the play "Anything Goes" at PVI (closing show tomorrow night) and last but not least, Chris-we're in another fight. Yesterday i was keeping all of my convo's short cause i was in a bad mood. And apparently he got upset about it (sorry) And then today when i tried to tell him why i was upset he wouldn't listen. RARG! Don't ask something if you don't want to hear the answer. Aggravating...it just sucks because i want everything to be ok, but when i get upset, i don't get "a little upset" i get UPSET. ::sigh::
So it's 8.45 and i'm exhausted, time for a shower and hopefully early bed! mmm...bed...
bleed these colors open wide, burning blues from butterflies. tonight we fly, flying faster trhought the night until the orange of morning light, dear black goodbye. i know it's hard to make this work when you're alone. i've been waiting for so long to hold you in my arms. embrace forever my sweet girl. water fills these open eyes, tonight we fly, still frames and valentines won't keep me in her mind, dear black goodbye...you are the ghost of everything that i'm not and i want to be. dear black goodbye, don't forget to write your name inside my life.