My New goal
So I have noticed a recurring theme in some of my posts. That theme is that relationships equal sex. I run around saying I want a relationship, but I do not really want one. I want sex, I want to squirt as much DNA into and on a female as I can and then be done with her. I want the confidence to seduce any female I want. I want the confidence to know that if I get a hard on I do not have to take that away myself.
I need this more than anything I feel. I feel my motivation for meeting females is false right now. I just want to have sex. If a relationship follows so be it. However, right now I am only after one thing. Seeing if I can make the eat my DNA, and come back for more later. This is what I need. I feel that if I have this I will be better able to facilitate a loving relationship.
Being a goody goody my whole life has made me a dull boy. I lack balance which makes for a strong character. I am going to have that balance or die trying. No more wallowing in self-hatred. No more hating the world. No more hating life, I am tired of that. I am just so fucking tired of it all. I want to love life and myself. Enough is enough and it is time for a change. I need to stop making excuses and FUCKING DO THIS!!!! I like my trainers goal for me. Being able to do 10 pull-ups and 5 handstand pushups. Fuck that 20 pull-ups and 10 hand stand pushups. It is time for a change.
I need this more than anything I feel. I feel my motivation for meeting females is false right now. I just want to have sex. If a relationship follows so be it. However, right now I am only after one thing. Seeing if I can make the eat my DNA, and come back for more later. This is what I need. I feel that if I have this I will be better able to facilitate a loving relationship.
Being a goody goody my whole life has made me a dull boy. I lack balance which makes for a strong character. I am going to have that balance or die trying. No more wallowing in self-hatred. No more hating the world. No more hating life, I am tired of that. I am just so fucking tired of it all. I want to love life and myself. Enough is enough and it is time for a change. I need to stop making excuses and FUCKING DO THIS!!!! I like my trainers goal for me. Being able to do 10 pull-ups and 5 handstand pushups. Fuck that 20 pull-ups and 10 hand stand pushups. It is time for a change.