Another Spiral?
You know it is funny, recently I have been really depressed, and I looked up my old account on Suicide forums. This makes me think that it is the beginning of the end. After all nothing gets me more depressed than going to a forum full of suicidal people who try to tell me not to kill myself. In reality I have been doing a lot of planning. While killing myself would be WAY easier if I was on the second floor... well lets just say I am not below managing to do so on the first floor. It will just require a lot more effort. But I lack the essential piece of equipment, rope. You know in reality if I even got my hands on some decent climbing rope, I would probably need to have someone watching me constantly. Because with all the impulses i have had over the past few months... lets just say that if I had a method available to me I am not sure I would be around much longer. Better get composing those notes.