Loney, but okay with it.
There's a lot I don't say about myself to a lot of people. Believe it or not, my goofy exterior (That may or may not come across in a strictly text format) can be called something of a defense. I hold all my friends and some of my family at arms length in terms of my feelings about important things.
I spent a good deal of 3rd and 4th grade by myself. I won't bemoan bullies or something, but whatever the case my formative years left me an introvert who rarely talks about things that really matter.
I guess I'm writing right now because I ache for someone to talk to, someone local who I can just hang out with and enjoy their company.
I want so badly to know another like myself, someone open to the concept of a god or even gods but tired, and hurt by, of the concept of religion. I want to find someone who isn't so cynical to assume our species not worth saving. I want to talk with someone who sees beauty in both the unknowable esoteric and the subtle scientific facts of life. I want to know someone who shares the little thrill I feel when I look out into the stars.
I'm not bitching anyone on LJ out, and I have a core of friends I can turn to for most everything. And I love Drakis, my mate, to the ends of the earth. I just want to find a friend.
Even posting this draws to the center of some of my loneliness. I write this worrying about offending one of my friends, which I really don't intend. I like ALL of you who read this, and each of you help in your own important way.
It's just that as nice as internet friends are, I feel lonely locally. I'm not sad or distraught about anything mind, I just wanted to jot down my thoughts.
I spent a good deal of 3rd and 4th grade by myself. I won't bemoan bullies or something, but whatever the case my formative years left me an introvert who rarely talks about things that really matter.
I guess I'm writing right now because I ache for someone to talk to, someone local who I can just hang out with and enjoy their company.
I want so badly to know another like myself, someone open to the concept of a god or even gods but tired, and hurt by, of the concept of religion. I want to find someone who isn't so cynical to assume our species not worth saving. I want to talk with someone who sees beauty in both the unknowable esoteric and the subtle scientific facts of life. I want to know someone who shares the little thrill I feel when I look out into the stars.
I'm not bitching anyone on LJ out, and I have a core of friends I can turn to for most everything. And I love Drakis, my mate, to the ends of the earth. I just want to find a friend.
Even posting this draws to the center of some of my loneliness. I write this worrying about offending one of my friends, which I really don't intend. I like ALL of you who read this, and each of you help in your own important way.
It's just that as nice as internet friends are, I feel lonely locally. I'm not sad or distraught about anything mind, I just wanted to jot down my thoughts.