Feb 09, 2005 18:31
Well,this entry is for chichi. I wrote this for you in school.
Dear Chi Chi,
I am just really sorry. I know that it is all my fault for what happened between me and you. I just need some time to get me life back in place. I hope you understand. I still like you more than anyone else in my life! I hope that one day you will consider taking me back into your life. I never knew how much i likes you until i did not have you. I also never thought i would miss you as much as i do.I will always miss having you in my arms. i will always miss you smile,you laugh. The thing i will miss the most is having a whole heart because of you. the best day in my life was because of you. The last thing i ever wanted to do is hurt was hurt you. i guess i am just a failure.i wish i could just give you my whole heart but it is just not there anymore with out you.just looking back at the moments me and you started 11-21-04 8:27pm 16secs. the first time i seen you when we were going out was at your house. It was like our first offical hug. The second time was at your house also my dad called me and told me i had to go. so i told by the doorway to your kitchen and i gave you a hug for like 10 mins. The we walk to your coach hands held tightly. I wraped my arms around tightly. My braclet also got stuck on your belly ring Eh. Sorry bout that. I never wanted to let you go. We heard my dad ring his car horn well beep it. We hug for like another 1omins then i left. oh yeah thats the day you hit me in the face Heh-heh. When i got home I called you and we talked for awhile. Then the nest time we seen each other was at my house. That was the first time me and you kissed. Listening to "bike Scene" by "Taking Back Sunday". Another alsome time was when me and you were watching mean girls and i fell asleep with you in my arms. When i woke up all i seen was you smiling at me. i was the best feeling i have ever felt. *tear drops* that holiday thing was really fun to. So was my party. Lets put it like this every single secend i spent wityh you was the best. New Years also. Just me siting here thinking of not having you brings me to tears.You might think this letter is all bullshit. Because it is not. it is what comes from what is left of my heart. It is also things that i love about you you. This point i would probally say "I Love You" I am to scared of love though. The only thing is i think i love you.I am not sure though because i really do not know what love is. -Donald