there were a few times when we made plans and then you chilled with scott i dont remeber that. but i always hung with you and everyone and i always hung with him. he came to the mall a few times cause i wanted to be with you guys. and you guys went to his shows cause thats what everyone liked doing back then. hes even driven you and a few people home a few times. and even if i did change plans we made, atleast i let you know instead of making you call me.
the only reason i wont let you "live that day down" is because when you hung out with him it was a huge secret. and i had to stay home alone that night because you blew me off. no, not "change plans", blew me off. and you did make it clear you were going with me. and i was the one who told you cause i remeber it was in the hallway. maybe youre thinking of one of the other times.
its just that some days i feel like sittin at home with a few frineds just goofing off instead of being out i dont always have to be going out to have fun. and whenever i couldnt sleep over it was cause i had drum lessons or a dance practice or something. when i didnt want to over spring break it was because linz told me you guys were gunan chill after you went to racheal's barn, so mauricio wanted everyone to go to the movies. but that didnt end up happening. and obviously i liek hanging at your guys houses if id walk with you guys after school just to chill for an hour before dance.
cos things end up the way people make them end up yes they do. and i dont know how the hell this is my fault.
it really wasnt a huge secret when i hung out with him . & i wasnt thinkin about another time . i had science with lindsey and she mentioned something about a show and i was like huh what show and shes like " well your hanging with greg so i told christina i might go wtih her " and then i asked you or me and you talked about it int he hallways and you said " it doesnt matter cos your hanging with greg anyways" or something. its not just my fault tho , it seems like your puttin all the blame on me and lindsey , its everyones fault & ... people make mistakes and we;re supposed to forgive&forget & not let these things stop our frinedship . we should be able to not hang out for like 2 weekeneds in a row or 3 & then come back and be right were we left off , cos everyone does have other things to do & other frineds they wanna spend time with.
it wasnt only 2 or 3 weekends... its been like 2 months. and friends and boyfriends and crushes can mix. you guys meet all my friends and bfs. and no matter what i say about linz and her bf youre gunna say "well thats linz". i dont know what happened to "chicks before dicks". but then again, no one ever promised eachother anything. i envite everyone on my lj to do shit every week. the only person who does anything is marco. and even tho he hangs with his gf and cant be around for me, i respect it, cause i know he can hang with other people and he tries to make everyone happy.
you guys used to always be invited and involved in everything in my life. but now i guess ive made new friends too.
i dont even kno what to say about all of this. im skipping out on my third period just so i could read about this "fight." why dont we all just get together and talk about this? LIVEJOURNAL KNOWS DRAMA and i kno you both hate it. and i dont act all bff in the halls cuz i still consider you mine. just like jill said above. so obviously we both feel the same way about it, and we're both trying to explain it to you, we just dont want to lose you as a friend but i think you think you're lost already. and i really dont want this to happen.
but i think you think you're lost already because when i told you you said "oh jeeze" and went on with your life because when i invited you places you had other things to do because when i say that ^^ you guys take it as "well we can have other friends" because i know you can have other friends. but you can make time for everyone. no one ever had time for that "rent day". but everyone had time to watch it and play ddr without me.
FUCK oFF! why is it so hard to understand?! why cant you fucking get that i dont want you around the people i chill with now? because you had to be friends with mikey and greg (ex) and everytime i told you NOT to talk to them you did, even after we broke up and i wanted a break from them. im not saying anything's going on with chris. im saying that you dont FUCKING GET IT. yea, i didnt go to the mall tonight. you know why? cause i KNEW you were going to be there. and i didnt know what the fuck i wouldve done if when i ran into you. you cant even be a good fucking friend to the people youve known since 7th grade, and yet youre trying to make friends with mine?! FUCKKKK OFFFF. DO.YOU.GET.IT?!
why cant you fucking get that i dont want you around the people i chill with now?
the people you chill with now? those people can have any friends they want and so can i. they are not only YOUR friends. not YOUR territory. i've known most of shauna's friends for a long time. example:hilary was on my soccer team. back in the day. i tryed to explain that to you that day in the hall that i didnt kno that chris sat with you at lunch or that u hung out with him outside of school before i knew that rachel was cool with him, i couldnt talk in detail because i started crying. i would have met him sooner or later no matter who he was friends with. and that seems to be the big problem now, chris. i came to the mall with rach and chris, not keith not hilary not louis not kirby not deanna and john not sean not shauna not mikey not danny. i didnt kno everyone was gonna be there, but its cool that they were. because ive met them all before anyways minus keith and sean. and i heard you said chris can either be friends with you or us, how is that fucking fair to put him in the middle? hes probably just saying "fucking spice girls" to all this but seriously christina, this is childish. im not trying to STEAL YOUR friends.
i didnt HAVE to be friends with mikey and greg, they were nice, and cool with me. i never really became friends with greg...he wasnt around for too long and when you told me stop talking to him i blocked him from my buddy list. and im pretty sure that i never went out of my way to become friends or talk to mikey while you guys werent talking, not on purpose but i just never saw him. during that five month period i must have seen him twice at the mall and once at r-town and thats it.
and i didnt know what the fuck i wouldve done when i ran into you.
what did you do? i came up to you and said hi to you and ur mom. the rest of the night we didnt talk once. i want to kno how you felt about that. dont say it was easy to do or that you didnt care that we didnt talk. so far ive cried twice in your presence and every time me and jill and me and rachel and me and shauna and me and my parents and me and jills mom have talked about us. it really fucking hurts me and i just dont kno how to fix it.
you cant even be a good fucking friend to the people youve known since 7th grade, and yet youre trying to make friends with mine?!
im trying to be a good fucking friend to the person i've known since 7th grade and trying to get everything right again but she just wont realize that jill and i have taken our blame. we get the fact that we made OTHER friends, not NEW ones. and we get the fact that we invited her places and shes invited us places but WE ALL SUCKED. and shes telling me to not chill with HER NEW friends because there only hers, but friends are not fucking items on a shelf and wont be bought by one person. theres no such thing as a friend store and theres no such thing as having a whole group of friends to yourself, especially if we all live around eachother.
shes tresspassed everwhere she wasnt welcome. and she wasnt even allowed to do it.
where have i tresspassed? im sorry if i ruined your night. i really am. because if we were talking last night i kno that would have had so much more fun. but it seems that everyone understands me and jills situation because we're apologizing, and we're not trying to kick you to the curb and step on you like a peice of trash, not trying to not be your friend anymore. i want to talk about this in person. 34 livejournal comments just arent gonna work.
"and i heard you said chris can either be friends with you or us" thats a lie darling.
" i want to kno how you felt about that." GREAT
"theres no such thing as having a whole group of friends to yourself, especially if we all live around eachother." you dont get out much do you? and living around eachother has nothing to do with it. if you met MY friends through me thatd be different then just adding them on myspace and fucking tagging along at MY house.
"where have i tresspassed?" my house. "im sorry if i ruined your night." good. "because if we were talking last night i kno that would have had so much more fun." what in your right mind thinks id want to talk? "but it seems that everyone understands me and jills situation because we're apologizing" appently not everyone. and saying sorry isnt everything. you guys had fun and did fine without me. it doesnt even matter anymore.
ive been crying since we stopped calling each other to hang out on weekends & i was upset about the shows thing too even tho i kno it was my fault that i didnt go , but i cant change what i did wrong , only try and make up for it , cos i do miss going to shows with you. & if we're all gonna get over it , i wanna get over it together as in still all being friends .
its not about how they were my friends first or shauanas friends first or how youd eventually end up meeting them... its the fact that YOU MADE NEW FRIENDS AND IW AS OUT OF THE PICTURE and now that i have new friends YOURE TAGGING ALONG LIKE CRAZY.
and if you want to talk about "i heards"... i heard you were breaking up with ryan? is that why you want so badly to chill again? i also heard you told shauna that theyre not my friends, theyre hers because she met them first. if thats the case then you mustnt be friends with them either. or mikey, marco, mauricio, sam, etc for that matter.
i wasnt tagging along thanks, rachels my friend, we were invitied to the mall by CHRIS. no one else, and we left with CHRIS, went to THE POOL (not your house so i wasnt tresspassing we werent even talking so how was i invading any space of yours)
whod you hear that from (about ryan)? and no thats not why i want to chill so badly. i want to be friends again with you. and i never ever said that they werent ur friends. you can be friends with whoever you want, i was just letting you kno that i knew them alreadi and that they were alreadi my friends and that i wasnt trying to hang with YOUR friends or TAGGING ALONG because i wasnt. i was hanging out. its up to mikey marco mauricio and sam to have thier own friends, whoever they are.
we've all been crying why dont we all GET OVER IT?
and about the chris can be friends with you or us thing, im not going to tell you who told chris that you were crying in the car and saying how much you hate me and jill and things, but im pretty sure they werent lying due to the fact that they dont kno much about the situation.
i dont remeber that. but i always hung with you and everyone and i always hung with him. he came to the mall a few times cause i wanted to be with you guys. and you guys went to his shows cause thats what everyone liked doing back then. hes even driven you and a few people home a few times. and even if i did change plans we made, atleast i let you know instead of making you call me.
the only reason i wont let you "live that day down" is because when you hung out with him it was a huge secret. and i had to stay home alone that night because you blew me off. no, not "change plans", blew me off. and you did make it clear you were going with me. and i was the one who told you cause i remeber it was in the hallway. maybe youre thinking of one of the other times.
its just that some days i feel like sittin at home with a few frineds just goofing off instead of being out
i dont always have to be going out to have fun. and whenever i couldnt sleep over it was cause i had drum lessons or a dance practice or something. when i didnt want to over spring break it was because linz told me you guys were gunan chill after you went to racheal's barn, so mauricio wanted everyone to go to the movies. but that didnt end up happening. and obviously i liek hanging at your guys houses if id walk with you guys after school just to chill for an hour before dance.
cos things end up the way people make them end up
yes they do. and i dont know how the hell this is my fault.
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its not just my fault tho , it seems like your puttin all the blame on me and lindsey , its everyones fault & ... people make mistakes and we;re supposed to forgive&forget & not let these things stop our frinedship . we should be able to not hang out for like 2 weekeneds in a row or 3 & then come back and be right were we left off , cos everyone does have other things to do & other frineds they wanna spend time with.
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you guys used to always be invited and involved in everything in my life. but now i guess ive made new friends too.
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because when i told you you said "oh jeeze" and went on with your life
because when i invited you places you had other things to do
because when i say that ^^ you guys take it as "well we can have other friends"
because i know you can have other friends. but you can make time for everyone.
no one ever had time for that "rent day". but everyone had time to watch it and play ddr without me.
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i thought we were planning on having it a different day.
with marco and andrew.
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dont even fucking reply.
(this is not to you, jill, only linz)
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the people you chill with now? those people can have any friends they want and so can i. they are not only YOUR friends. not YOUR territory. i've known most of shauna's friends for a long time. example:hilary was on my soccer team. back in the day. i tryed to explain that to you that day in the hall that i didnt kno that chris sat with you at lunch or that u hung out with him outside of school before i knew that rachel was cool with him, i couldnt talk in detail because i started crying. i would have met him sooner or later no matter who he was friends with. and that seems to be the big problem now, chris. i came to the mall with rach and chris, not keith not hilary not louis not kirby not deanna and john not sean not shauna not mikey not danny. i didnt kno everyone was gonna be there, but its cool that they were. because ive met them all before anyways minus keith and sean. and i heard you said chris can either be friends with you or us, how is that fucking fair to put him in the middle? hes probably just saying "fucking spice girls" to all this but seriously christina, this is childish. im not trying to STEAL YOUR friends.
i didnt HAVE to be friends with mikey and greg, they were nice, and cool with me. i never really became friends with greg...he wasnt around for too long and when you told me stop talking to him i blocked him from my buddy list. and im pretty sure that i never went out of my way to become friends or talk to mikey while you guys werent talking, not on purpose but i just never saw him. during that five month period i must have seen him twice at the mall and once at r-town and thats it.
and i didnt know what the fuck i wouldve done when i ran into you.
what did you do? i came up to you and said hi to you and ur mom. the rest of the night we didnt talk once. i want to kno how you felt about that. dont say it was easy to do or that you didnt care that we didnt talk. so far ive cried twice in your presence and every time me and jill and me and rachel and me and shauna and me and my parents and me and jills mom have talked about us. it really fucking hurts me and i just dont kno how to fix it.
you cant even be a good fucking friend to the people youve known since 7th grade, and yet youre trying to make friends with mine?!
im trying to be a good fucking friend to the person i've known since 7th grade and trying to get everything right again but she just wont realize that jill and i have taken our blame. we get the fact that we made OTHER friends, not NEW ones. and we get the fact that we invited her places and shes invited us places but WE ALL SUCKED. and shes telling me to not chill with HER NEW friends because there only hers, but friends are not fucking items on a shelf and wont be bought by one person. theres no such thing as a friend store and theres no such thing as having a whole group of friends to yourself, especially if we all live around eachother.
shes tresspassed everwhere she wasnt welcome. and she wasnt even allowed to do it.
where have i tresspassed? im sorry if i ruined your night. i really am. because if we were talking last night i kno that would have had so much more fun. but it seems that everyone understands me and jills situation because we're apologizing, and we're not trying to kick you to the curb and step on you like a peice of trash, not trying to not be your friend anymore. i want to talk about this in person. 34 livejournal comments just arent gonna work.
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thats a lie darling.
" i want to kno how you felt about that."
GREAT
"theres no such thing as having a whole group of friends to yourself, especially if we all live around eachother."
you dont get out much do you? and living around eachother has nothing to do with it. if you met MY friends through me thatd be different then just adding them on myspace and fucking tagging along at MY house.
"where have i tresspassed?"
my house.
"im sorry if i ruined your night."
good.
"because if we were talking last night i kno that would have had so much more fun."
what in your right mind thinks id want to talk?
"but it seems that everyone understands me and jills situation because we're apologizing"
appently not everyone. and saying sorry isnt everything. you guys had fun and did fine without me. it doesnt even matter anymore.
and i honestly dont care.
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& if we're all gonna get over it , i wanna get over it together as in still all being friends .
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its not about how they were my friends first or shauanas friends first or how youd eventually end up meeting them... its the fact that YOU MADE NEW FRIENDS AND IW AS OUT OF THE PICTURE and now that i have new friends YOURE TAGGING ALONG LIKE CRAZY.
and if you want to talk about "i heards"...
i heard you were breaking up with ryan? is that why you want so badly to chill again?
i also heard you told shauna that theyre not my friends, theyre hers because she met them first. if thats the case then you mustnt be friends with them either. or mikey, marco, mauricio, sam, etc for that matter.
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whod you hear that from (about ryan)? and no thats not why i want to chill so badly. i want to be friends again with you. and i never ever said that they werent ur friends. you can be friends with whoever you want, i was just letting you kno that i knew them alreadi and that they were alreadi my friends and that i wasnt trying to hang with YOUR friends or TAGGING ALONG because i wasnt. i was hanging out. its up to mikey marco mauricio and sam to have thier own friends, whoever they are.
we've all been crying why dont we all GET OVER IT?
and about the chris can be friends with you or us thing, im not going to tell you who told chris that you were crying in the car and saying how much you hate me and jill and things, but im pretty sure they werent lying due to the fact that they dont kno much about the situation.
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