Please excuse the negativity, but i have to get this off my chest
Normally I don't like to be negative on here at all because I get tired of hearing people complain all the time about how their life sucks, and normally I already know that because I have my own.
I've been thinking this week about how unfair things really are. I work basically full time and also go to school. Does anyone care about what I do? No. I have a 3.9 GPA. Does anyone care? Again, no. I work all weekend every weekend and just about every night of the week. Again, does anyone care? No. Does what I do in my life seem to make a difference in someone else's life? Not that I can see, but I might be only looking at the small picture and not seeing the whole thing.
Anyway what this is leading to is that I've worked for everything that I have and that I am. I haven't had anything just handed to me, I've had to work my ass off for it. There are a lot of people who just seem to have everything handed to them, all wrapped up in a nice little package with a ribbon tied around it...do you think they really have to ever do any work at all? NO THEY DON'T! And that's what pisses me off. They get to sit around and get fat on the beach while I work to no end just trying to get by.
I don't think I'd have my life any other way but I just wish that for one day some people could actually do something to earn what they have rather than having it handed to them. Maybe then they would understand why I can be so angry and bitter at times...why I say life is unfair and why life can suck.
All I wanted over spring break was just a few days off work. I didn't ask to go anywhere or do anything, I just wanted some time to take a break and relax a little. Did I get that? No, I worked the whole time.
It pisses me off that people who don't do anything can take a nice long vacation to, oh say, Florida over spring break and sit on the beach and do nothing when all I do is work all the time and never get a second to stop and take a rest.
I guess though that most of those people tend to be rather unappreciative of what they have, because when you have to work for everything you tend to appreciate every little second you do have to take time for yourself.
Its too bad that those unappreiative people will never know what it means to actually have to do something and to earn what they have, because while they're sitting on the beach getting fat, I'm working hard and blowing right by them.
EDIT: I think this song by The Distance pretty much sums up my life and how I'm feeling.
"Everyday's a struggle a work in progress thats my life
Torn and tattered is how I feel
How much longer till it gives
In my mind I'm at war with myself
I just can't win
It gets harder everyday
I come apart at the seams
When we're young all we know is everything works out right
Where the hell did life go wrong, look at where I am
Every year's a blur
People change, I'm still the same
Day in and day out, It will drive you mad
Failures what I am, Negative all day long
Knowing I'll never be much more than I am
When we're young all we know is everything works out right
Where the hell did life go wrong, look at where I am
Gave it my all, there is no hope, I can feel it life is caving in
I am my own worst enemy I told myslef so many times
"Life won't get the best of me" but that's all a lie
Everydays a struggle a work in progress thats my life
Torn and tattered is how I feel
How much longer till it gives
In my mind I'm at war with myself I just can't win
It gets harder everyday, I come apart at the seams
I've been thinking this week about how unfair things really are. I work basically full time and also go to school. Does anyone care about what I do? No. I have a 3.9 GPA. Does anyone care? Again, no. I work all weekend every weekend and just about every night of the week. Again, does anyone care? No. Does what I do in my life seem to make a difference in someone else's life? Not that I can see, but I might be only looking at the small picture and not seeing the whole thing.
Anyway what this is leading to is that I've worked for everything that I have and that I am. I haven't had anything just handed to me, I've had to work my ass off for it. There are a lot of people who just seem to have everything handed to them, all wrapped up in a nice little package with a ribbon tied around it...do you think they really have to ever do any work at all? NO THEY DON'T! And that's what pisses me off. They get to sit around and get fat on the beach while I work to no end just trying to get by.
I don't think I'd have my life any other way but I just wish that for one day some people could actually do something to earn what they have rather than having it handed to them. Maybe then they would understand why I can be so angry and bitter at times...why I say life is unfair and why life can suck.
All I wanted over spring break was just a few days off work. I didn't ask to go anywhere or do anything, I just wanted some time to take a break and relax a little. Did I get that? No, I worked the whole time.
It pisses me off that people who don't do anything can take a nice long vacation to, oh say, Florida over spring break and sit on the beach and do nothing when all I do is work all the time and never get a second to stop and take a rest.
I guess though that most of those people tend to be rather unappreciative of what they have, because when you have to work for everything you tend to appreciate every little second you do have to take time for yourself.
Its too bad that those unappreiative people will never know what it means to actually have to do something and to earn what they have, because while they're sitting on the beach getting fat, I'm working hard and blowing right by them.
EDIT: I think this song by The Distance pretty much sums up my life and how I'm feeling.
"Everyday's a struggle a work in progress thats my life
Torn and tattered is how I feel
How much longer till it gives
In my mind I'm at war with myself
I just can't win
It gets harder everyday
I come apart at the seams
When we're young all we know is everything works out right
Where the hell did life go wrong, look at where I am
Every year's a blur
People change, I'm still the same
Day in and day out, It will drive you mad
Failures what I am, Negative all day long
Knowing I'll never be much more than I am
When we're young all we know is everything works out right
Where the hell did life go wrong, look at where I am
Gave it my all, there is no hope, I can feel it life is caving in
I am my own worst enemy I told myslef so many times
"Life won't get the best of me" but that's all a lie
Everydays a struggle a work in progress thats my life
Torn and tattered is how I feel
How much longer till it gives
In my mind I'm at war with myself I just can't win
It gets harder everyday, I come apart at the seams