why love someone who wont love you back?
well life sucks i cant really say im happy anymore because im not. i lost everything that meant something to me. i lost someone i loved and trusted but he didnt feel the same about me. like i know i have done my share of bad things and i kinda think i deserve it but damn in love there is no eye or an eye thing. its just not right that he would hurt me like this. and i know deep down he probably cares about me not eating and crying all the time and that he loves me but he is too caught up in his "fun" that he cant stand back an see that someone he loves is hurting herself.
im hurting my health here and i cant say i havent thought about suicide i have. and i know its stupid and alot of people are going to tell me that im wrong for wanting to do that. but im just not happy, like i really thought me and him would get married and have kids but david had other plans for us. he messed up with me and he knows that and he may believe i will take him back but i wont ever do that. i know i wont i couldnt do that to myself and i see myself going to the hospial cause i lost lots of weight. and i keep feeling dizzy and light headed lately i think its from not eating. but w.e its not like he would ever know about it or even care. he would just laugh and say oh well let her die he would be happy. i know he would and it hurts me somemore. :( i just want to get over him already cause it hurts too much and i cant deal with this anymore. i just cant talk about him or see pictures because it hurts too much i just cant and i wont ever trust him again he lost me and my trust...how sad i thought we would have a family of our own together...i was wrong...
im hurting my health here and i cant say i havent thought about suicide i have. and i know its stupid and alot of people are going to tell me that im wrong for wanting to do that. but im just not happy, like i really thought me and him would get married and have kids but david had other plans for us. he messed up with me and he knows that and he may believe i will take him back but i wont ever do that. i know i wont i couldnt do that to myself and i see myself going to the hospial cause i lost lots of weight. and i keep feeling dizzy and light headed lately i think its from not eating. but w.e its not like he would ever know about it or even care. he would just laugh and say oh well let her die he would be happy. i know he would and it hurts me somemore. :( i just want to get over him already cause it hurts too much and i cant deal with this anymore. i just cant talk about him or see pictures because it hurts too much i just cant and i wont ever trust him again he lost me and my trust...how sad i thought we would have a family of our own together...i was wrong...