A small relief... But nothing to smile over...
So Im really glad its friday today..I mean i hate college and i never like being here and always look forward to fridays..But today I am extra glad for it. Nothing had changed in my life and thats the only thing i need..things that stay the same for to long end up trying to kill you out of pure boredem. I need to set my life in a direction where i will win. im sick of trying, really. "I'm giving up, I dont give a fuck...". Someone new needs to come in my life and make me happy. I am just waiting for her to walk past me. Everything that once seemed as though trying for always ended up dying in front of me. Does anyone know how the fuck i feel? i mean really? shit... I mean i know i will come out of this.. But fuckin when? I will leave it up to my friends to try and pull me through because they always do..But it may take some outside force this time. Some sort of a change...I love my friends and thank every single one of you for ever putting a smile on my face and you all know who you are...
JAY