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it's such a funny thing...love. i don't get it nor do i understand how it works. i tell myself i am in love, but sometimes i wonder how i can be when the person who i love hurts me all the time. i know it is not intentional, but i feel like he has reached a point in his life where other things are becoming more important than i am. i am so tired of feeling like i always get the shorter end of the stick. i don't want to give him an ultimatum because i know how important his music is to him. it is important to me as well. i just don't see how he expects to have a good relationship while juggling school, work, the band, and lastly...me. this feeling is terrible. i want things to be the way they were when we first started dating. now i am just being immature and irrational. everything must change. i am just hoping things end up changing for the better instead of the worst...
jared came home yesterday. i didn't realize how much i really missed him until i saw him. i am so proud of him. i hate that he is moving so soon.
jared came home yesterday. i didn't realize how much i really missed him until i saw him. i am so proud of him. i hate that he is moving so soon.