with a finger on the tip of her lip she rolled her eyes and mouthed...
I used to know this human girl who... When I think of her my mind goes blank so to put my thoughts in writing is just that much more difficult. Do you ever think about a time in your life when things just seemed so fucking horrible and realized how good those times actually were in respects to where you are now because at least then there was a promising variable you overlooked? Yes, maybe it was love?
The fleeting things seem to dictate my life. The realization of things thought to be permanent fading forces fear in trying to hold anything. Have you ever conviced yourself that you'd no longer expect anything anytime from anybody but then found yourself being let down nonetheless therefore taking drastic measures and just always expecting the worst of everything always from everybody but in that expectation causing yourself not to fall into the phlegmatic state which may have been desired but instead heaving you into more of a melancholy, destitute, perturbed, detached, discomposed feeling? Um, perhaps it was jealousy?
So now I talk to this long aquaintance and I believe we are becoming friends.
I don't know, maybe if I just faced all the things I've lied about it'll all turn out for the best. But if you know the lies... If you only knew the lies. I'd cover them with lies.
Happy Birthday Kathy Black
The fleeting things seem to dictate my life. The realization of things thought to be permanent fading forces fear in trying to hold anything. Have you ever conviced yourself that you'd no longer expect anything anytime from anybody but then found yourself being let down nonetheless therefore taking drastic measures and just always expecting the worst of everything always from everybody but in that expectation causing yourself not to fall into the phlegmatic state which may have been desired but instead heaving you into more of a melancholy, destitute, perturbed, detached, discomposed feeling? Um, perhaps it was jealousy?
So now I talk to this long aquaintance and I believe we are becoming friends.
I don't know, maybe if I just faced all the things I've lied about it'll all turn out for the best. But if you know the lies... If you only knew the lies. I'd cover them with lies.
Happy Birthday Kathy Black