i did it.
i broke up with him. yeah. well i didn't do it in the mean, "i'm dumping you, loser" way that some girls do. i mean, he probably was expecting this after he read the long letter i wrote him friday. but still, i ended it. i briefly explained to him in person that i believed it would be better if we got to know each other as friends. and we could get back together if we wanted later on. or something. it didn't go as badly as i thought. when i said, "well i guess we're friends now, then?" and sort of smiled, he smiled too. and we hugged for a long time. so i mean, it could've been worse. though i was about to not break up with him after reading his letter which he wrote in reply to my long one. in it, he kept saying that he wanted to "work things out." but i mean, i think i did the right thing. .. didn't i?